doors; yoongi

eight

august 15th

8:49pm

kicki kinda felt like everything around her moved in slow motion. there were two girls who introduced themselves to her but she didn't even hear their names, just nodding her head and offering a smile. going to school and having a work took a tool on her and she couldn't remember the last time she was not stressed or had a full night of sleep. but none of that were the reasons her mind was racing and her heart seemed to get stuck in her throat right now. no. it was a boy, a man, a person she knew all too well. the person who only sent a text to her once in the past two months and the person she's been worrying about every second of every minute of every hour of every day.

yoongi was standing there, helping one of the girls to take off her coat. he was standing there, in kicki's building, in her hallway, in front of yeeun's door that was currently opened allowing the loud music to fill the hall.

''kicki you're just on time.'' yoongi said, as the girls walked inside of yeeun's apartment. a smile was playing on his face, his features bright and beautiful as always but now more brought out due his hair being black.

''on time?'' kicki managed, fixing her bag on her sore shoulder, trying to make sense out of all of this. ''for what?''

yoongi chuckled, moving over to her and taking the bag off of her shoulder, his other hand gently placed between her shoulderblades, pushing her towards the door. ''i was at your door a few times today but you weren't home-''

''work.''

''i figured.'' he said, dropping her bag next to the door before he closed it, the music suddenly overwhelming kicki a bit as she blinked a few times, looking over her shoulder at yoongi. ''it's yeeun's birthday.''

''really?'' kicki asked, turning to face him as she ran a hand through her hair. ''i didn't know. i didn't bring anything. you could've told me earlier. texted me or something.''

''it's fine, gifts aren't that important anyway. it's enough that you're here.'' he said, waving his hand and kicki looked at the floor as she took a deep breath and moved towards the source of loud music.

''so. you and yeeun?''

''we worked it out. i took some time to figure it out and the break was very much needed, it helped us both.'' he said with a smile, stepping aside and letting kicki walk into the living room where a few people were already dancing and having fun.

and she was there, ordinary but glowing. she stood out from other people. her smile was bright and her laugh was vibrant. her energy was warm and she was just one of those people you'd want around you at all times. the look in her eyes was friendly and her voice was like honey as she greeted kicki.

''oh my god, i was afraid you'd be working until really late again. i'm so glad you're here.'' yeeun said, giving kicki a tight hug and not waiting for kicki to be the first one to speak up and wish her a happy birthday. which, in some odd way, once again, made yeeun a great person.

''happy birthday, i'm sorry i didn't bring you anything.'' kicki spoke up as they pulled away from the hug but yeeun only shook her head, offering a bright smile as she rubbed kicki's arm.

''it's enough that you're here.''

kicki felt a weird twist in her stomach that shouldn't be there as she was reminded of yoongi's presence, him leaning on the doorway. but before she could even start to torture herself with the thoughts that have been eating her away, yeeun tugged her by the sleeve.

''let's get some drinks, yeah? i know this is a bit overwhelming for you since we literally just threw you inside but just relax.''

and kicki tried to.

and yeeun helped a lot. she was sitting next to kicki on one of the chairs placed in the living room, sipping on some cheap beer and just talking about things from everyday life. but with every word she said, kicki's stomach sunk and the guilt built up because even though this was nice, and she means really nice, there was still a small twisted part of her mind wishing this never happened. because that would've maybe meant that yeeun wasn't back with yoongi.

but kicki didn't ask anything else about it. it wasn't her place to be and honestly? she was happy that they are back together. they've been through a lot together and they knew each other better than anyone else. yeeun knew yoongi and was in love with him. pure and honest and raw. and kicki? kicki let yoongi stay over and had short conversations with him and was in love with the idea of getting to know him and falling in love with him. that was a big difference.

''and you know, yoongi?''

''huh?'' kicki snapped out of her thoughts, afraid that she might've said something outloud but as she looked over at yeeun expecting her to be mad or confused, kicki found her gazing in the distance, a smile spreading on her face, small crinkles appearing by the corner of her eyes.

''he really is something different. i'm so lucky to have found him.''

kicki believed her. and as she looked over at yoongi who was handing around the drinks, his smile was as bright as yeeun's and his eyes were fixed on her. kicki realized that yeeun wasn't gazing in the distance and neither was yoongi. but kicki was.

and it was fine. 

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SORRY 4 disappearing for like Years but i was extremely unmotivated nd Done with everything but now i'm in a kida better state so i had some ideas suddenly come to me abt this last night nd yeah. thank u so so so much 4 reading this nd commenting nd being amazing bc it truly means alot. i literally splashed my ideas that were all over the place throughout this but i'm glad some of u guys liked it. once again, thank u SO MUCH for giving this so much love, i was literally overwhelmed when i came back online, thank u for reading this. i know it's short nd nothing special but thank u. i love u!!!!!