Aphmau abused a Aarmau FF {DISCONTINUED}

a/n

Please play the song and listen to it until you get to the end of this please

Hey guys I'm going to stop posting for a least 3 months. If you really wanna know why it's because right now I'm a depressed mess If you look at my profile you can see proof. I get bullied a lot online on a game I play. And I really don't have motivation to keep writing at the moment. I honestly don't even have motivation to live anymore... I know that this will be a long break but I need time I may just give up on wattpad all together cause I don't have any confidence anymore. These are pictures of how I honestly feel right now

I hope you can understand I'm going through a hard time and I need to take time off. I will still reply to comments and people who pm me but I don't want to post things until I can chose to be happy. I have no one by my side anymore all my friends hate me or have just started ignoring the fact that I have feelings too. And the one who's like a sister to me hardly ever talks to me and she doesn't show she cares. I want to be happy with her I really do but it's hard considering I have trouble trusting people. She does make me trust her though I just don't feel close to her the way we where before. Here's something I found on another person's story that I thought was pretty close to how I feel when I say I'm FINE

FINE:
Fucked up
Insecure
Nothing
Emotional

Edit~Also I used to cut myself because I was bullied at school as well only a select few knew but then someone I didn't want to know found out and used it to her advantage and if it weren't for Alexis I wouldn't even be here right now. She stopped me from committing suicide by saying that she would do the same to herself that stopped me and then she started to be more caring and I thought I was through with all the crying but no. We had a fight a bad one and we got over it by the end of the day but that started up my emotional side and now it won't leave.