Surviving the Bridge Brothers (on hold till further notice)

Chapter 15- The L word... and some friend time

                Chapter 15- The L word… and some friend time

                I just look at him I am still shocked and I think do I love him. Do I really even know what love is?  I see that his face is pained and I know I am freaking him out by not answering and I think about how he makes me feel.

                He is sweet, kind he protected me from Malcolm. He is playful he is funny. He makes me feel things that scare the crap out of me and I wish I could kiss him twenty four seven because I love how I feel. I wish that I could always be in his arms because I love how it feels. And I almost always think about him and I realize if that’s not love what is?

                “I will answer after you actually tell me because you technically have not told me anything.” I say hoping he gets what I am implying

                He looks at me and his eyes go wide and I have no idea if that is a good thing or not. He picks me up off his lap and stands up as well in the process. He takes my hand and leads me out of the office. We walk past the living room and past the kitchen and into the little hand out room and into the door that leads to the fort.

                The fort is nothing special it’s just the game room or something this house has way to many rooms. The room consists of a flat screen TV an entire wall of DVD’s a small like kitchen kind of thing, a full bathroom and one couch and one bed which I do not want to even thing about why it is in here. It looks more like a fantastic guest room but I have no clue.

                It also has a balcony and a hot top which again make s me think about how it looks like a guest room. The last time we were in her which was my first time in this room we watched a movie. Letters to Juliet and just stayed together on the couch in each other’s arms. Nothing happened and I’m happy about that because I have no idea what the guys think happened because when we came out after the movie was over and went back over to the guys.

                All they did was staring at us and they frowned when Luke and I could not stop smiling.  Luke put me on the couch and started to walk around the room suite thing.  He just started pacing and running his hand through his hair over and over making it stick up at odd angels.

                After a while he stopped pacing and stood right in front of me.

                “Ok I’ve never done this before so just listen ok. Please let me finish before you say anything.” He asks in a serious tone his face void of any emotion as well as his eyes which are always full of happiness and it scares me to see  him like this so I just nod wanting to hear what he has to say and why he is acting like this.

                He started hi pacing again and began to speak. “When you first showed up here two months ago, I could not take my eyes off you but I saw my brothers and figured that I would never stand a chance. So I tried to keep my distance but then I saw you get run away after my brothers where talking you first day her and I knew something was wrong. So I followed you and you told me your story and we became friends.

                Then school and you and Nate and I was happy we where friends but then the whole Mark thing and I wanted to kill him I knew I could not just be your friend and I knew Nate so I just had to wait. And then we got together unofficially and then officially and you make me really happy.

                I smile more because of you. I really like your laugh and how you have gone through all this drama in your life yet your still happy and optimistic about life and look for the good in people and bottom line.” He stops talking and pacing coming up to me and getting onto his knees he looks me in the eye.