The Littlest Winchester

A heart to heart

"So," Sam said over his paper, " looks like we have a new case."
"Where?" I cut Sam off.
"Oklahoma. A construction worker died, it was like his brain evaporated and blood was coming out of his eyes, ears, and nose." Sam replied.
"Well let's hit the road we should be there by tomorrow morning," Dean said opening the impala door.
*****time skip when they arrive to Oklahoma******
We pulled up to the construction sight where the man died, and all climbed out of the impala and walked over to the sinkhole where the construction worker died.
"Well that hole only looks big enough for one, I'll go down." Dean said.
"No I will." Sammy said.
"Flip a coin for it?" Dean asked
Well Sam and Dean argued about who was going to go down into the sinkhole so I grabbed a rope that was laying on the ground and started to talk over my brothers.
"Boys," I Called as I tied the rope around my waist. "I'm going down." I said as I handed the rope to Dean "And you better not drop me."
"Your not going down there, we don't know what's down there." Dean said.
"Exactly dear Dean." I said in a sarcastic tone. "We don't know what's down there, so I'm going down to find out. The hole won't be big enough for you guys but it's the perfect size for little old me." I said with a smirk. And walked towards the hole
"Now," I said looking between Sam and Dean. "Don't drop me."
Once Sam and Dean lowered me into the sinkhole I found hundreds of dead beetles. After putting a few into my pocket I looked up at Sam and Dean and said " pull me up guys."
"Beetles? Really? You found beetles in a big hole in the ground full of dirt? Who would have thought such a thing could happen?" Dean faked a sarcastic gasp.
"You know there are flesh eating beetles, I mean normally it's dead flesh but, it's still flesh." I said pushing the handful of beetles I took from the sinkhole and pushing them towards Sam. Sam studied them and then looked at Dean.
" I mean it's the only lead we have." Sam stated to Dean.
"Okay, let's find a hotel and then scope out the neighbourhood tomorrow" Dean said.
*******in the hotel room******
Dean was in the shower, Sam was sleeping, and I was researching in turns out that as Oasis Plains was being built not just the construction worker had been killed. A developer had been killed before construction even started. Just as I was trying to connect the dots Sam jerked up from his sleep, another nightmare.
"Sammy," I called.
"I'm fine." Sam paused "I'm fine." Sam had been saying he was fine since Jessica died. He hadn't talked about her, and me and Dean didn't push him to tell us anything. But enough is enough he must be losing it inside his head, he had nightmares every night. I had to say something to him.
"That's a lie Sam." I said standing up from my chair and going to sit by him on the couch.
"You have nightmares whenever you fall asleep, Sam you can't keep doing this." I said.
"Care, I get that your concerned but you haven't been in love like me and Jess were, we did everything together. And it's killing me she's not here with me. I should have been there Care. "Sam said. " I should have protected her. I should never have left her to go with you and Dean. I should have been there to protect her. She didn't deserve to die alone."
"Sam what happened to Jess wasn't your fault-" I started but Sam cut me off.
"The who's was it?" Sam shouted at me. I was taken back a little Sam never shouted at me, never! "If it wasn't for me Jess would have never been exposed to the supernatural." Sam's voice starts to shake, like when your trying to hold back tears.
"It's all my fault," Sam said. I didn't know what to do so I hugged him like he need to be fixed. And as I pulled away I started to make him feel better.
" Sam I didn't really know Jessica, and I'm not going to pretend that I did. But what I do know, is that when you love someone you want the best for them. And Sam this constant hating yourself and nightmares is not what's best for you. I'm not saying to run out and get a girlfriend, and forget about Jessica. But what I am saying is that you need to remember the good times you and Jessica had. You need to stop hating yourself. Because Jessica's death was not your fault. Now you need to start picking up the pieces and you know your not alone me and Dean are always here. Hell we send most of our time in the same car together. If you don't have us who do you have?"I laughed and so did Sam.
"Thanks Care." Sam said with a little smile.