The Girl I Met In December.

Chapter Twenty-Five.

Chapter Twenty-Five.

"Like I said at break and lunch and even when you met me outside art today, stay the hell away from me!" Ashby screamed at me as she basically ran home and me right on her tail. "Just hear what I have to say!" I yelled back desperate for her to just give me a chance to explain but she just shook her head madly at me as her socks were now falling down to her ankles.
"No! I don't care" She snapped back. Great Ashby couldn't find a bigger knife to stab me with because it was now stuck in my chest. I thought I meant to her more than this, I thought she knew me better than this.
Frantically she opened the front door before slamming it in my face again, I prayed for my patience hold out because I knew this was all my fault.
Scrambling around in my pockets I finally managed to find my keys before bursting in, going straight to her bedroom door.
"Ashby let me in please. You'll understand once I've spoken!" I told her through the wood, banging my fist against it, I knew I could just walk in because we weren't allowed locks on our doors but I wouldn't invade her privacy like that.
"I don't care!" She screamed back at me and it sounded like she was near the other side of her room. I was desperately helpless as I continued to beg for her to let me in but she either ignored or shouted at me to go away. I had no other option so decided to open the door, dreading the action with every bone in my body.
"What the hell?? Get out!" She continued now in a furious tone, oh man I knew this was a bad idea but I couldn't stop now.
"Why won't the fuck you listen to me?!" I pleaded with her. She was sobbing so hard, her face had turned red.
"Because I should've expected this! Everyone told me about you! You know it makes me sick how guys can sleep around and be called legends but if girls do it then we're sluts! You made me feel as if I was just one of the many girls you just wanted to sleep with!" She explained with so much anger I could see her shaking now and she had actually left my speechless for a moment because I unsure how to answer because she was honestly true. The world sucked when it came to this sort of thing but I couldn't fix that for her, it was just how people thought, not that it made it right.
"I never meant to say that! If you just listen to me-"
"You just didn't want me to hear that! Get out now!" She cutting me off, her voice weak as she continued to get more and more worked up.
I wish she would just listen to me because she had to know my side of the story before she could tell me to get lost because then I'd find it fair, it'd destroy but at least I could walk away knowing I tried.
Choking up, she leaned down to pull up those crazy socks before moaning for me to get out but I took the chance to pin her to the floor. She yelped as she landed on her back, hitting her head off the floor. Well that wasn't a good start.
"You're insane! Get off me!" She protested squirming underneath me, her legs flying everywhere even hitting the sides of my body at one point. May I just add Creepers fucking killed sides of bodies but I didn't move instead I locked her arms outwards so the floor, my hand trapped her place before wrapping my legs around her own; one of the hardest things I had done in my life and I almost got my face kicked in by them painful fucking shoes. Grated it wasn't the most appropriate position given the situation and the fact she was wearing a skirt too but I didn't really have a choice about that now.
She continued to fight against me which was pointless, she already knew I was stronger than her by a lot.
"Shh, just listen to me please, Ashby" I tried to soothe her. Her hair had fallen over her face from her little tantrum.
"Look, please just listen to me and then I'll leave. Sam was asking me if I had slept with you but Sam is a dickhead and relentless so I said what I needed to say to get him and Joss off my back... Ashby I never meant to hurt you and you're right I never meant for you to hear all of that but you're so different and this whole set up is different. If I had just wanted you for sex, I would've tried to persuade you by now. But to be honest I don't even give a shit if we do or don't as long as you are happy and mine" I practically panted over her and just like that her legs dropped and she had gone still under me and I wondered if she had past of from concussion or something.
"Are you being serious?" She spoke blowing the hair from out her face. Oh thank fuck she was okay.
"Course I am" I sighed to her, dropping my head down from the exhaustion of all this drama, I was on the verge of tears as well and my sides killed, my hands hurt from gripping her down and my legs ached from the awkward position just to keep her being still so I could tell her what really happened.
"I'm sorry," She whispered, her tone soft as I heard sniff quietly.
"I should have listened to what you had to say" She continued, trying to meet her watery gaze with my own. My heart race began to slow down and I was able to gain control of my breathing again and pushed the tears back into my body.
"Ash, its okay. But you can't react like this, I can't go through this again. We have to talk about things like this otherwise I can't cope" I replied, pushing through the lump in my throat. I couldn't lose her, I really couldn't because I don't know how the fuck I would get over her.
Unsure of how I was feeling right now I removed to meet her gaze.
"Okay" She whimpered underneath me and I could hear she had begun crying again. Carefully I released her arms from my grip and noticed the red finger marks that appeared. God, I was such a massive dick.
"Do you not want to be with me anymore?" She asked as I leant up from her, giving her chance to sit up as well or well try to anyway I hadn't let go of her legs yet, afraid I might get knocked out by her feet.
She wasn't the only one going to have marks as I was so going to have bruises in the morning.
"That's such a stupid question, Ashby. You know I do"
"Than-"
"Something big" I reminded her.
"Then at least look at me Donnie, please" She begged a little; the vulnerability in her voice killed me.
Unable to resist I pulled her into me and hugged her tightly, I didn't want her to leave after I would have to let go of her. I felt myself break down inside just feeling her against me again made me realise how much she would destroy me if she wasn't here anymore.
"Ash, I swear to god never say it's over with me. Not when we haven't even begun being together"
"I won't. I promise"