The Girl I Met In December.

Chapter Thirty-One.

Chapter Thirty-One.

"Can't you come here like agreed?" Jaynie begged as she spoke down the phone while we all sat awkwardly at the dinner table. She had been on the phone for about fifteen minutes now and we were all unsure whether to eat or not. Meanwhile, Lily and Ryan had restored to playing with their toys at the table again, Ryan now using the edge of the table as a cliff edge. Ashby got my hand in hers under the table as she tried not to stare at Jaynie but it was hard to when she had this tone in her voice. "But I have a home to look after as well with different aged children to take care of" She moaned walking out the room and I really wasn't sure if I liked what was happening right now.
"I guess we should eat before it gets cold" Ashby told everyone quietly after a moment. Ryan hesitated looking at us both before beginning to start eating but Lily got right into it, stuffing her face immediatley with green beans.
"No shit Sherlock" Robert grumbled with a huff which in return I shot him a secretive dirty but that just made Ashby stepped on my foot, purposely. Okay maybe I wasn't the best at giving secret glares. In addition to this she untwined her hand from mine and began to eat before Jaynie came shuffling back in, sighing deeply and it sounded so tired.
"Are you okay, Jaynie?" Ashby asked gently as we her take her seat again, rubbing her eyes slightly before yawning.
"We've been invited to go away from the twenty third of December till the twenty seventh of December" She spoke with dismay... which confused me greatly, she had been invited to something surely that was a good thing?
"Where to?" Ashby replied with slight tone of curiousity seeping through.
"To another care home they'd thought it'd be nice to spend it all together" She explained with a small smile appearing on her face now.
"You seem annoyed by it, I'm sorry but isn't that a good thing?" I slipped out in a confused voice, shit I hadn't want wanted to get involved, it wasn't anything to do with me, it wasn't my business to stick my nose in.
"It's a long story that I can't say with little ears about" She motioned her head to Robert who was now also shoved a large lump of mash potatoe into his mouth, I think Ash needed to teach him table manners again. But oh shit right, Robert's Christmas present was to see some band on Boxing Day, may I just add who the heck plans a concert the day after Christmas like what the fuck? It was stupidly dumb that it made my brain hurt.
"Well why don't you leave on the twenty third and on Christmas Day after lunch head back home. It's not ideal I know but I'm sure no one minds" Ashby spoke, trying to be helpful but did mind because I really wanted to take Ash to this party to make up for being such a dick at the last one.
"They are very small children, I think they'd annoy you two very much" Jaynie explained with another sigh and I just hated the thought of spending my christmas around so many snotty as brat.
"Then we'll stay here if it's easier" I slipped out suddenly again and I sort of hoped that Jaynie would say yes because then everything would be perfect but Jaynie would never say yes, I mean leaving kids on their own on Christmas Day there no way she'd allowed that. Especially kids in care.
"Are you sure you wouldn't mind?" She spoke with a concerned tone, looking down at her probably now cold, she was practically shaking with worry and I could was stare for a moment, utterly stunned she was considering it.
"I wouldn't mind. Christmas is just like another ordinary day to me" I shrugged it off trying be causual hoping she wouldn't change her mind after finished chewing my food.
"Ashby, is that okay with you?" Jaynie asked changing to over to Ash with a gentle tone while pointing at her with her fork. On the other Ashby had begun shifting in her seat, pausing for a moment now being in the spotlight. "Course. I mean if it would make everyone happy and Robert doesn't mind then okay" She whispered to her food clearly uncomfortable from Jaynie's stare. Meanwhile I flickered my eyes towards to Robert who was also staring at her like he finally understood how much she cared about him which was fucking a lot.
"I'm cool with it" He spoke in his usual bored tone... yeah, maybe I had spoken to soon.
"You guys sure?" Jaynie spoke with slightly more confidence in her tone and shamefully all I could do was nodded at her.

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"Alright, please keep in contact with me. I'll call or message every once in a while and if you don't reply or pick up I'll be straight back" Jayne demanded at us with a firm almost scary gaze before pulling me and Ashby into an awkward hug but it felt oddly comforting, I was actually cared about, I had rules set in place for me so she worried about us. Finally, she released us from her bear hug now placing a light kiss on Ashby's head.
"Remember to take your stuff" She told Ashby quietly with a small gentle smile on her face but it seemed like they were having a completely didn't conversation in their heads with each other. However, Ash just nodded back while I began to wonder what this stuff was again. I'd have to be nosey and ask her about it later.
"Okay I'll be off then" She smiled to hide her concern and she looked on the verge of tears but she did turn round and stroll into the car, driving away from, getting smaller and smaller until was just a dot then out of sight and I felt both of give a huge sigh of relief. "I hope Robert will be okay. I told him to behave" Ashby muttered under her breath it caught in the icy weather, giving her away as she stopped waving them goodbye.
"He's going to be okay" I told her, though I didn't have much confidence in my words. I mean this was Robert we were talking about, nothing was certain when it came to him but I hoped so.
She nodded unsure as me before wrapping her arms around my stomach side ways and I felt like we were living together and the rest of our family were going home or something. It felt weirdly warm.
"Come on, you'll catch a cold out here" I told her soothingly, basically dragging her inside. "Ash, what is this stuff that Jaynie has mentioned a couple times?" I dared to ask, no time like the present I suppose but I was nervous to question her about in case what reaction I might get back.
"Oh, nothing" She replied causally waving her hands off the subject and shutting me out which struck me painfully in the chest, we were meant to be honest with each other or bottling things up otherwise it just led to arguing and that was hell for me.
"No tell me. What is it?" I repeated with a firmer tone, she was slipping away from me again. She sighed, she leant against the kitchen counter, knotting her hands together, out of instinct I was in front her, making sure to keep space between us.
"You know I spent about a month in my room without coming out" She began softly, staring down at her hands. I pulled a puzzled face, I wasn't quite sure how that related to what we were talking about now but okay? "Erm yeah, I suppose. Carry on" I replied with an uneven tone with regret washing over me for asking her now because I was not liking where this was going. "I was taking medication... and it's the sort of kind that takes a month maybe more to actually take affect" She explained in barely a whisper, I actually struggled to hear but then the words processed in my head and it hit me right in the face. "I take ant-psychotics for my Borderline Personality Disorder like Rob" She whispered, not daring to look at me but I knew it, it was coming together like a puzzle now. Carefully, I tested the waters by stepping forward unsure if she wanted to be touched right now.
"It's not a big deal. I haven't got a major case of it" She rushed out quickly, waving her arms about madly through the air. Fuck it, I marched up to her, cupping her sweet cheeks in my hands gave her soft, slow kiss.                                                                                                                                                    "It okay. I don't think any differently of you. I just wanted to know"