I Do Need You

Chapter 3_Just Anyone ?

I'm hovering in the parking lot after Taylor and I said our goodbyes , I actually asked him about the whole working out at his place thing , like I said he had no problem with it . He probably wouldn't mind me staying there , if his parents allowed it of course . His just really kind to me , he always has my back .

Its been ten minutes since the final bell rang though and I have no idea why I haven't gone home yet . Kidding , I know why . One I hate being home alone while Steve and my mom just argue about shit I never bother asking her about . And two , what happened at lunch really got me thinking . I wanted to go up to him and thank him in almost every class , but just as that little thing proved how well he knew me and how well he'll always know me . That little thing he did just messed with my mind . I can't explain how much it meant to me that he remembers my favourite drink . I'm pathetic , I know but the little things mean so much to me .

I remember clearly the first time a little thing he did that obviously up to this moment left a mark .

~I was ten years old , sitting in my backyard , crying my eyes out as I witnessed Steve knock my mom out , unconscious . She was lying on the kitchen floor when I came down the staircase , ecstatic to show her my newest drawing of the planets . I didn't see him physically hurt her but I knew it was him . His face red , I could see the anger in his eyes and the guilt reflected from his sweaty forehead . So I just sat there on the cold concrete with nothing but the stars shining , using my drawing as a tissue . Suddenly I felt a soft hand , gently lift my head up . Will stood there , clear worry and hurt in his eyes as he saw his best friend crying for the first time .

"Alexandra , what's wrong ? Why are you sad ? What did I do wrong ?" He asked me , his voice shaky , he was clearly holding back his tears , trying to be a strong young boy .

"No Will , you did okay ," I sniffled and tried my best to find the words that would describe what I was feeling then , "I'm afraid Will , he scares me and his going to hurt me and..."

He didn't let me finish as he sat down beside me and wrapped both his tiny arms around me . I felt safe with him even at that young age .

"Alexandra no , he won't hurt you . You are my best friend and he can't hurt you . I will keep you safe . I promise ." He once again gently lift my head up , our eyes focussed on one another , he used his thumb and gently brushed my tear stained cheeks . As little as I was I knew I trusted Will and that he would be my safe place .~

I didn't realise I was daydreaming until Will snaps his fingers inches away from my face , making me flinch . Nope that lovely memory of him still doesn't change the him he is today . I wish it could though , I wish I could just change his mind about me . I wish we could be friends again . I do miss him . His the only one that's been my friend , that's stood up for me throughout all my life and then for that to be taken away for no reason simply hurts . I want to change it all though . I need to find a way to change his mind .

"Alexandra , what the hell are you doing ?" What ?

Oh , I didn't realise my thoughts actually causes actions . I am now hugging him , confusion clear on his face as I look up at him . This is awkward okay enough of this . I slowly release my tight grip around his waist . I guess my body has a mind of its own . I didn't mean to actually react and hug him . It's not a big deal though , he'll probably laugh about it , right ?

"Don't fucking do that again," ouch . What was I thinking though , wait I wasn't thinking .

"I didn't mean to..."