Depression

Insanity

You start smiling but for what? Like you're not happy you're pissed as hell

and you actually for once look a bit terrifying because you can look in the mirror and tell that what you see is not

definitely not you, its scary when even you cant tell who you are anymore. When people dont understand or realize how you feel at that moment in time i think thats when you feel truly alone because you realize that no one out there understands how you feel and that it makes you different and then you are forced to keep it in since you dont want to be seen as weird or a freak and you just keep it all in. And then one day it just all of a sudden pops up and you get all that feeling and all those emotions all on one and you just break down and cry from all of it because you cant take it and when I think that when it happens you dont know what else to do except blame yourself you blame yourself for making you keep all those feelings in you just sit there in the middle of your room on the floor and just you want to scream and cry but all you can do is stare at the ground because all the emotions youve kept up have dried out all your tears and you're all chocked up to the point where you can't actually scream