Castle | b. blake | 2

12.

"Then I realize what it is. It's him. Something about him makes me feel like I am about to fall. Or turn to liquid. Or burst into flames."

-Tris Prior

12.

"I thought I would have a little more time with him before he goes." I say to Raven as we walk toward the room she usually works in with Wick. She's hoping to set up the walkie talkie so we can talk to him from the inside but for him to have communication on his side he has to figure that out when he's in there.

She opens the door and we enter and she sets her crutch down and starts grabbing different things.

"Why aren't you with him right now?" She asks, not looking up from what she's doing.

"Because Lincoln is explaining the routes and tunnels to him." I grab a wire and start playing with it.

"I can't believe you even agreed to let him go." Raven shakes her head.

"What was I meant to say? He even said he wouldn't go if I asked him not to but I can't do that. I can't tell him not to go, it wouldn't be right." I sigh. I've been thinking about this all morning and all night. Especially since I realized I'm in love with the dork. I still can't believe it, if you would've told me that I would fall in love with Bellamy Blake when we had touched down on this planet, I would've punched you in the face. Old me really enjoyed punching people in the face, now I have a little more control...little. Either way I went from hating him to loving him.

"You may be right, I want our friends out too. Bellamy is probably the only person here who could do it." She praises him.

I smile, "He is. I'm just scared."

"It's only normal, T." She says as she messes with the walkie talkie.

I sigh and set the wire down and look to her, "Can I tell you something?" She stops what she is doing and looks at me.

"Of course."

"Last night, I realized that I love him and it scares the hell out of me. I don't know what to do, Raven."

"You just realized this last night?" She smiles and I glare at her. She clears her throat, "Right, sorry. The best thing you can do is tell him. When I was with Finn I told him the second I knew and no later."

"But you and Finn were different. You had been together for a long time. Me and Bellamy are new to our relationship."

"Taylor, you and Bellamy have been through some much crap together. Trust me. Also, theres no amount of time you have to be together to say it. When you know, you know, and when you know you say it. Don't hold back because you're afraid. Especially you, you're Taylor Queen, Taylor Queen isn't scared of anything. You're fearless and brave." Her words gave me a confident boost but that doesn't mean all my nerves left me.

"I'm not fearless. I would be stupid not to fear anything. I might look like I'm not afraid but truth is, half the time I'm as afraid as anyone else. I'm just really good at hiding it."

"Well keep doing what you're doing because I didn't think you were afraid of anything." I smile at her words.

"Thanks Raven, I think I should go see if he's done talking to Lincoln so I can see him off." The thought of saying goodbye to him sends my stomach in knots.

"Rude, you only talk to me for advice." I roll my eyes at the girl because I know why she wanted me to come with her to work on the walkie talkies.