Hold on Till May

I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim (Chapter 2)

Yeah I know that the title is a Bring Me The Horizon song but it fits the beginning of the chapter. 

Credit to greatestrachel since the base storyline is similar to hers. she has an amazing Vic Fuentes fanfic and you should check it out.

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NO ONE'S POV.

"No! PLEASE DON'T HURT ME!" Haley screamed.

"You deserve it you filthy whore!"  Dave screamed.

(Dave is the guy who adopted her)

He  slapped her across the face. Haley screamed at the top of her lungs for as long as she could. She became lightheaded. No one came to her rescue. Dave proceeded to throw her onto the bed, climbing on top.

Haley woke up, except it felt as though she were still dreaming. She could still see her old room. She could feel his tight grip on her wrists and his filthy nails digging into her skin. It felt completely real. Like she was reliving what happened when she was 11. She could feel his heavy body on top of her skinny, fragile body. She tried to escape but there was no hope. He was holding her down, her hands tied to the bed and he was beginning to tie her legs spread open wide to the bed. There was no escape.

NATHAN'S POV

I woke up to find that Haley was having another one of her dreams. I screamed her name "Haley?! HALEY! Wake up! Please!" Haley please wake up. I need you. It was another few seconds before she woke up. She was out of breath and was desperately trying to catch it. "It's just a bad dream.. sorry..." she said to me.

"You don't need to say sorry.. I care about you. You shouldn't have to go through this. I wish I could've been there for you back then. Your life may have been so much better..." I trailed off. Not wanting to continue. I didn't want to confess my love for her. Not now. But oh my god I love her. She's so beautiful.. damn. But I would have no chance with her. Why would she go out with a guy like me? I'm disgusting.

She must've been trying to get my attention because when I stopped talking to myself she was all like "Earth to Nathan!" 

Jeeze. Even when she's upset she still manages to make me laugh.

"Alright, so now that I actually have your attention. You should get some sleep. I'll be fine, don't worry about me." Her words are hard to believe. But I head back to bed. She usually wants to be left alone after one of those nightmares. I trust her not to do anything stupid. Not now. Not before the concert. I was one of the only ones who knew what she was going to do in 4 days. Other than Kaleb, at least. I heard Haley walking around but I passed out.

HALEY'S POV.

Nathan was looking at me with such kind, caring eyes. I'm so glad that he woke me up and not anyone else. He's the only one who knows about my nightmares. I tell him to go back to bed and he listens. Like he always does. He must know that I like to be alone when something like this happens. But he has no idea what I'm doing to do. Nothing that'll end my life. But just numb the pain.

As soon as I think he's asleep I grab a lighter, some weed, alcohol and a blade. Yes, a blade. No amount of drinking, getting high or cutting can relieve the emotional pain I feel after this. I climb up onto the roof like I always do. I open up the alcohol and take a sip. Then I smoke some weed. Perfect. I don't know why but I'm thinking about Nathan. Damn I have to admit he is pretty cute. Fuck. Why would he like anyone like me? Who would love a girl with scars? And with that train of thought, I pick up my blade. With each cut it gets deeper and deeper. The blood slowly trickles down my arm. It kinda tickles.

I can't believe I'm doing this. I put in my headphones and blast My Dad's Album, Collide With The Sky. His voice makes me feel safe, like nothing can harm me. Why can't I be with him right now? Ugh.

2 hours pass by and I'm still blasting Collide With The Sky. I take out my earbuds, half deaf and having to let my ears adjust. I get off the roof and quickly run into the bathroom.

If anyone saw my scars I'd be fucked. No one knows, surprisingly. After cleaning up I throw on a black Pierce The Veil T-shirt and a shit load of band bracelets. I wonder what'd be like if mom and dad were still together. They'd abandon you, dumbass. "SHUT UP!" I yell but quickly cover my mouth. Fuck. Why did I do that. Someone could've heard.

I NEEEEEDDDD FOOD. No you don't, you're fat. Fat! Fat and Ugly! Die! I ignore the voice in my head and run into the kitchen and grab the food that Skylark left on the table for me. Nathan is at work and Genevieve and Scarlett are hanging out with friends from school. I have no idea where the fuck Skylark is. Which reminds me. I'm going to be late for work! Fuck. Good job, smartass. I grab my skateboard, phone and earphones and rush out the door. As soon as I'm on the sidewalk I put in my earphones and blast Bring Me The Horizon's Sempiternal album.

The wind is rushing through my hair, blowing it all over the place. Which reminds me. I grab my hair and neatly put it up in a high ponytail.

5 minutes pass and I can see the store. I hop off my skateboard and walk the rest of the way. As soon as I walk into the store the beautiful colours of all the skateboards fills my mind. I hop over the counter because walking another metre to get behind the counter is too much work. I sit down in the chair thats behind the counter and look down. Oh look at that. Your thighs are so fat! You're so fat. And ugly. Stop eating! Or better yet, kill yourself. I bring my knees up and place my feet on the chair, resting my forehead on my knees. "Hey twerp!" Zayn, my boss walks in. He has an Australian accent which is a huge turn on. Shit, I didn't just say that. I place my phone on the counter and Zayn stares at it. "What?" I ask while laughing at him. "Dude! Your phone is completely shattered. What did you do?" "I dropped it" I say while laughing at him again. Technically what I said was true. But I dropped it while I was hopping over a fence. I was in a hurry. The cops were chasing me. Oops.

Anyways, I don't have a crush on Zayn, so, don't start thinking that I do. He reminds me of Kellin Quinn except with an Australian accent. Kellin Quinn is fucking hot. Zayn looks almost exactly the same except Australian which is like 10 times better.

Since I have nothing better to do, I grab my phone and start listening to music.

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Two hours pass and we've had a few customers. Not a lot. It's now 11:50.

"I'm taking a lunch break!" I yell at Zayn. "Alright! See you in an hour!" he yells back. "An hour?! Are you trying to get rid of me?" "No!" I then grab the stuff I need and head out. I don't want to skateboard right now so I just walk across the street to McDonald's. I order a Big Mac meal and a McChicken. What can I say? I'm hungry. No, you're just fat. After I got my food I started heading over to the tables. You will not believe who I saw sitting there.

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Finally updated. Sorry for the wait even though no one reads this. I'd just like to say sorry To greatestrachel for not giving her credit from the beginning.

Oh and anything that's in bold and italics is what the voices in Haley's head are saying.