Hold on Till May

The Chemicals Will Bring You Home Again (Chapter 6)

Don't hate me. This is a small chapter. Didn't really have much to write but please don't hate me xD

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Haley's POV

I hate myself.

Worthless. Trash. Kill yourself. The voices keep playing in my head. Everyone would be better off if you were dead. Your father doesn't even want you. That's why he gave you up in the first place.

Maybe I should just die already. It's not like anyone cares. My dad had no idea I existed until I contacted him. I can hear the blades calling for me. I pick up the familiar blade and drag it across my skin. The crimson liquid spills out of the fresh cut. I feel relieved very quickly. It takes away my pain and makes me feel so much better. I make a couple more cuts and then sit back and watch the blood spill out. It's calming. Relaxing. My life is shit.

I don't even notice that Nathan had walked in the room and had probably been standing there for about 2 minutes. "Haley, what the fuck?!" he yelled at me. I stared down at what I had done. "You're trash, Haley. I don't even know what I saw in you. You're ugly." He walked away and just left me there with tears forming in my eyes.

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After a while of drowning in my own tears I decided to get up and wash the dried blood off. Just in case Vic came in..or someone else.

I winced in pain as the hot water poured over my cuts and I gently pressed the cloth around them to get the blood off.

I went back into my room and grabbed a Bring Me The Horizon pull over and fell asleep.
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I woke up to someone shaking me. I slowly opened my eyes and realized it was Nathan.

"Hey Haley! I told your dad that you were back and he wanted me to give you a message. He told me to tell you to kill yourself because you're worthless. He never wanted you, Haley. You're a piece of trash."

A thousand things are running through my head. "Please, Nathan. Don't take this out on me. Because you're the only thing that's keeping me alive!"

"If you can't live without me then why aren't you dead yet?" He replied and turned towards the door and left me there again. I decided it was time to leave. To find a new home.

I grabbed my skateboard and some of my things and started heading out the door when someone grabbed me by the wrist. Their nails were digging into my cuts and I jolted back in pain but couldn't break free.

"And where do you think you're going?" Vic asked pushing me against the wall, still gripping my wrist. "I-I.." Tears started forming in my eyes and I couldn't get a word out. "Nevermind.. I don't really care." Vic said then punched me in the stomach. My knees are weak and I can't stand anymore but Vic lifts me up and supports me then punches me just under my rib cage. "P-p-please.." I managed to speak. "Vic..it h-hurts." I fell to the ground and he started to kick my stomach I couldn't stop him and I just wanted everything to be over. "Now, you see. Nathan told me you were back. Did you get my message?" He smirks at me. "By the way.. I'm the one who called Dave to come and get you. I heard he was out of prison and wanted to see you. So I gave him a call."

"Now that he's had some fun with you, I get my turn." He smiles and then knocks me out.

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I wake up with bright lights shining in my eyes..

                                                                        TO BE CONTINUED!

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