Emma Carters
I'm in the middle of cooking breakfast for everyone when I hear someone's speaking. I look up from the pan and see Alex. "Hey, Emma. What happen between you and Jason? He seems so -- upset. I swear he seemed really happy yesterday but now, he's so upset and sad."
I don't bother to reply and keep pretending that I'm busy. How am I suppose to tell Alex that I'm the one who makes his brother upset and sad? I probably broke Jason's heart already. I remember his eyes showed pain when I -- not exactly -- rejected him. I feel so heartless and mean.
Flashback
I stare at him in shock. Did he really just ask me that? I seriously don't know what to answer. A part of me screaming 'Yes! You love him and he loves you! Just answer yes!' but another part of me yells 'Remember Caleb? Both of you have been dating for more than a year. Remember those memories both of you have? And you just want to let it go? Beside your currently status is still dating him.'
"Emma?" Jason waves his hand in front of my face which makes me snap back into reality. "You okay?" Jason sounds concern. Oh god, how am I suppose to reject him? It'll totally break him.
"Y-yeah. Yeah, I'm alright." I reply without making an eye contact with him. I just look at Snowflake and pat her.
"Um, and what's your answer?" Jason asks nervously, like I'll reject him, which I'm planning to do. Oh god, help me.
"Jason, look, it's not that I hate you or anything, it's just- it's complicated you know. My currently status is still dating Caleb. I can't date two people at once you know. I act-" He cut me off.
"No, it's alright. I got it. You just don't want be with me isn't it? I don't blame you tho. If I was you, I don't want to date me either." Jason croaks, it's like he's about to break down anytime soon. His voice sounds so broken and the worst thing, I caused it.
"Jason, it's n-" He cut my sentence off by walking out the room and slams it off.
What have I done?
Present
"Emma?" Alex's voice makes me snap back into reality. "Firstly, you almost or already burned the bacon. Secondly, why are you crying?" Alex rushes into my side and help me with the bacon. I wipe the tears out of my face. I guess I fail making breakfast.
"I- I'll make the new one." I say then walk away to grab more bacon.
"No. Wait." Alex catches my wrist, causing me to stop right on my track. "Tell me what happened last night. After Jason walked out from your room, you never came out until this morning and Jason never went back to your room. I know you guys share room and bed, so don't lie. Tell me everything and I'll help with the breakfast later." Alex asks sternly.
I keep silence, how am I suppose to tell him that? He'll hate me forever for hurting his brother. "Emma, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. Don't cry or Jason will kill me." Alex says. Hearing his name hurts me more than anything. I keep remembering his sad eyes.
"I-If I tell you, you'll hate me forever." I whisper as tears keep falling.
"I promise I won't hate you. Now come on, sit down and talk." Alex demands as I do what he told me to.
"I rejected him." I whisper softly. Alex looks at me with an eyebrow raises. "I rejected him when he asked me to be his girlfriend." I state more clearly. Alex looks at me with go-on-and-tell-me-I-promise-I-won't-hate-you look. I nod and continue. "To be honest, I actually want to be his girlfriend. He may can be a jerk and sort of abusive sometimes but at the end, he'll always be there for you and apologize for his mistakes. No matter how much you pissed him off, he'll be the first one who be there for you."
"Then why did you reject him when you also want to be his girlfriend? If you doubt his love for you, well, don't. I've known him since he's a baby and I never saw him really into a girl before. Mostly, he'll just bring sluts home for one night stand." Alex tells me.
"No, I never doubt his love for me. Believe it or not I know how much he loves me. It's just really complicated." I sigh.
"Really? How? You love him, he loves you. I don't see how that's what you called as 'complicated'." He quotes the word complicated.
I sigh deeply. "You won't get it. But I'll try to make you get it. Before I rejected Jason, I have a conflict with myself. A part of me screamed at me to say yes because I love him and he loves me, but another part of me made me remember of Caleb. We've been dating for more than a year. The memories we had made me can't just say yes to Jason. Beside, my status is still dating Caleb." I explain then look at Alex and give him a help-me look.
"Before I give you advice or solution, I want to decline one thing. I understand what you told me missy. You practically just underestimated Alex McCann." Even at this kind of situation, he still can makes me laugh a little. "And my advice for you is follow your heart." Alex says wisely.
I look at him for quite long before reply, "That's it? I practically told you everything and you just told me to follow my heart. I didn't mean to underestimate you because what you said is quite wise, but really?"
Alex nods his head and mumble a long yup. "Trust me Emma. Just follow your heart. Follow what you think is the best for both you and Jason. Now if you let me, I'll make breakfast since someone almost burned the house." Alex jokes. I slap him playfully and give him a glare which makes him chuckles.
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"Jason, can I talk to you for a moment?" I ask him after trying to find him for while. He's sitting on top of the roof while staring at the view. He nods slowly without tearing his gaze off. I take a sit beside him and copying his action. It's silence for a moment until I break it off. "I'm sorry."
I can see from the corner of my eyes Jason's finally tearing his gaze off and staring at me. "What for? If it's for rejected me, it's fine. You're too good for me I-" I cut him off by placing my lips into his. It takes him a few seconds before starting to kiss me back. We just sit there on the top of the roof, kissing. A moment later, I pull off and placing my forehead into his. "What's that for?" Jason whispers-asks with confusion written down his face.
"I'm so sorry that I rejected you Jason. It's just that my currently status is dating Caleb, I don't want to date two people at once, I feel like a slut if I did that. But after talking with Alex, I finally realize that I love you. I'll just ignore the fact that I am dating Caleb. I love you Jas-" Jason cuts me off by kissing me.
"I love you too. And you're not a slut." Jason says between kisses before starts kissing me properly for quite long.
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