calabasas

4

Chapter 4:
i'm "busy"
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Olivia's p.o.v
Ding!
I was laying on my bed, thinking; think of life.
I checked my phone; charlie texted me

Charlie -
Hey livvy, wanna hang out?

I didn't answer, I just set my phone down. I like charlie, I don't want to break his heart.
Ding!
I was assuming it was charlie because he just texted me a minute ago

Charlie-
Kylie, Jaden, Cameron & Jess & I miss you, Jaden's visiting today! C'mon ❤️

I didn't answer once again, I didn't want to hang out - it was 10 am in the morning and all I've done for the past few days was cry & sleep. I ate sometimes, my sadness is just taking over, I don't even feel hungry anymore.

I want to hang out at 2 am with you Charlie, I want to hear you talk about your feelings while we stroll through the park in our pajamas since we were too lazy to change, no one will be there to stare at us, its just me & you.

Charlie is the only one who understands me.

Ding! - another text snapping me out of my thoughts

Charlie-
Olivia?

Me-
I can't Charlie, I'm busy..

...busy with my sadness, I'm sorry Charlie. I love you.

I haven't been to school in so long, I've gotten texts from everyone asking where I am or what happened to me, or they ask if I'm ok.

I don't know if I'm ok, I never respond to their texts anymore, I only respond to Charlie's texts. I can't explain why Charlie means so much to me, he just does.
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"As I lay in my bed
in this dark room
the silence is strident
and so is my mind.
My thoughts immediately go to
you
every moment of the day
until
my eyes grow heavy
and my body is at peace
but still
you're there
in the back of my mind." -
S.D