I Need You (Hayes Grier)

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HAYES' POV

After that whole thing with Blair, she sleeps better now. I know for sure because I watch her.

I'm out with my friends and I see Blair at the park with Mike.

I don't trip, she's with him now. I can't do anything about that.

Yeah I still love her.

More than ever.

My friends and I play basketball. 3 on 3. Skins vs shirts. I'm on skins. I take off my shirt and set it to the side.

I see her looking.

Good. I hope she regrets loving him.

We play and they win.

After we go get some pizza then go to Fred's place.

He pulls out some weed and some liquor. We smoke till we see blurry images. After it calms down we take shots of vodka. We just get fucking faded.

My friends drop me off at my house. I'm still fucked up.

I look at Blair through her living room window. Her parents aren't home.

She's so beautiful. So adorable.

She goes upstairs to her room.

I run into my house and watch her through my window, not too obvious. She starts taking off her day clothes and slips into something more showy and comfortable.

My hand slips into my pants. I start jerking off to her.

I grab my phone and go on snapchat and double tap her name.

I record me jerking off.

I hit send.

I'm high and drunk. I don't know which one I am. I'm just not me right now.

I look out at her reaction.

She opens the message and she gasps and drops her phone.

I snap into reality, oh fuck did I just do that?

I pass out at about 1 AM.

THE NEXT MORNING

Fuck, my head is killing me. I go downstairs and take some pills to help with the pain.

I'm never gonna get that fucked up in my life ever again.

I check snapchat and I have a message.

Blair.

12:22  Blair:) - What was that about?
12:51  Blair:) - Why did you send me a dick video???!

Oh shit, I did. Fuck what did I do? I'm such an idiot. She will never want to be friends with me.

Shit, shit, shit.

I put my phone in my pocket and head upstairs. I see her coming out of her bathroom. She looks beautiful. Like always.

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It's about 8 PM. School tomorrow, I don't want to go.

I have no choice.

Back to looking at her and Mike making out, holding hands, her doing stuff to him.

I hate him, that fucking bitch.

I call Fred and tell him to bring me a couple of things. I pay him and he leaves.

Weed, Vodka, and some type of drink.

I get fucking drunk, I save the weed for later. I grab my keys to my Range Rover and leave. I can barley see.

But I know where I'm going. I know what I'm doing.

I get at the house.

Mike's place.

I'm going to beat his ass.

I knock at the door and see,

Blair?

What is she doing here late at night?

"Hayes, what are you doing here?" She asks confused.

"I'm looking ff-for Mikey boy." I stutter.

"Are you okay, Hayes?" She is concern now.

I nod.

"Mike, Hayes is here for you!" She yells down the hall, leaving me by myself at the door.

"Hey, what's up?" He asks.

I look at them standing by each other. 

I can't hurt him, it'll hurt her. I can't do it.

"Um, noth-hing. I was just looking for um, Blair. Her parents told me tt-to check up on her." I lie.

"I'm fine." She chimes in.

I get in my car. I drive away.

Tears run down my face.

I didn't expect this. I didn't expect her to be with him when she came back. I wanted her to be mine again.

I stop somewhere in the middle of nowhere.

I look at myself in the little mirror, I grab some more Vodka and take some. It burns but I like it.

I fall asleep in the dark night.

How can she hurt me. She hurt me.

I didn't hurt her.

I'm hurt all because of,

Blair Luna.

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Sorry that is so short but I needed to post something. Who actually reads my book???

-mulana