I Need You (Hayes Grier)

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HAYES POV

I get woken up by my phone alarm.

Oh shit it's Monday. I don't even know where I am.

Then I remembered what happened last night.

When that thought hits my brain, my head starts pounding.

I'm having a hangover. Fuck, I hate these.

I look in the mirror and I see dark circles, puffy, red eyes.

I look terrible. It looks like I've been crying for hours.

I was.

I look at my phone and it says 7:35.

"Oh shit!" I yell.

I'm going to be late for school, my mom is probably worried, and I skipped my morning workout.

Fucking Blair.

I use Google Maps to help me get out of this mess.

I arrive at school at 10:07 AM.

It took me a while.

I get a pass and rush to 3rd period.

As I open the door, heads turn towards me.

I look down, my hat covering my face.

I give the teacher my pass, sit in the back, take my hat off and put my head down.

Blair taps my shoulder.

"Hey, are you okay?" Her sweet voice asks.

"Fine. I'm fine." I reply.

"Are you-" I interrupt her.

"I'm sure, just leave me alone, Blair." I say.

I hear her turn back around. Why did she have to come back?

I mean yes, I want her here but with me, not Mike.

The bell rings and I gather my things and leave. I past Blair.

I'm such a dick but honestly I don't care what anyone thinks of me anymore.

7th period rolls around. Finally it's almost over.

Blair sits next to me.

My head is down, it's been that way for, 4 class periods now.

"Hayes." Someone calls.

Blair.

"I told you to leave me alone." I say raising my voice a bit.

"Can we talk after class?" She asks.

I don't say anything.

The bell rings, I gather my stuff and leave.

Not saying a word to anyone.

I get in my car and leave.

I see Blair run after me, but I ignore her.

I start crying. Crying because I let a girl do it to me.

I let Blair Luna make me this fucking sad.

"Fuck!" I yell, hitting my horn.

I get home and sit in my car, hands on the steering wheel, head down. I'm worrying about alot of things.

1. What my mom is going to say when I walk in from not being home last night.

2. What Blair is thinking.

3. Is Blair mad at me?

4. What was it she needed to talk to me about?

5. Did Blair sleep last night?

Do you see a pattern there? There's none. Because Blair is all I think/worry about.

I grab the weed and the drinks and stuff them in my backpack and walk inside.

"Where were you, young man?" My mom asks.

"Mom I can explain." I turn around.

"What's wrong, baby, you look horrible." She says touching my face.

I so didn't know that, mom.

She lets me go.

I run upstairs and shut the door.

"I'll be back in a few hours, going to visit your brother, dinner is in the oven!" She yells from downstairs.

I hear the front door close.

I pull out the alcohol.

I chug it down.

I see Blair through my window, sitting on her bed. Doing her homework.

She's so beautiful.

No fuck her, she's why you're feeling like this Hayes, remember?

I pull out a pre-made blunt, thanks Fred, and light it.

I inhale, then exhale.

I start crying again.

Who cries while smoking a blunt?

I guess I do.

I grab the bottle of Vodka and chug it some more.

I lay down on my bed. My tears dry up.

I'm a little buzzed. Not fully.

I hear the door open.

Fuck.

Blair.

"Hayes, can we.." She stops.

I put the bottle to the side so she wouldn't see.

"What happened today? I'm worried about you." She asks.

"Worried about me?" I start laughing. "Go worry about your little boyfriend!"

"You're drunk." She says quietly.

"Mhm." I mumble pulling out the bottle.

"No more, Hayes, seriously." She says taking the bottle away from me, wetting the blunt.

"You're no fun, you buzz kill!" I yell. Then laugh afterwards.

She takes me to the bed and lays me down, since I stood up when she came.

She lays me down and rubs my back in circles.

I pass out immediately.

I'm guessing she did too.

8 PM

My head hurts again.

I grab my phone, check the time. Woah it's late.

Blair is next to me.

Oh shit, what happened.

"You awake?" I whisper.

She doesn't answer.

I text her dad and tell him where she is.

I lay next to her and kiss her forehead.

I fall back asleep.

For once, I felt better again.

I know this won't last long.

But I need to keep feeling this type of high.

To live.

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Kinda short but it's January 1st, 2017! Ahhhh, I hope you all were happy and safe

-mulana c