Choices {Phan}

Music {6}

I woke up at around nine with Dan's arms holding my torso and his head laid on my chest. My right leg was trapped between Dan's right and left. My hands were loosely wrapped around his back. I know I said this before, but he really is a koala. He had the biggest smile on his face. I never want to see that go away. He looked so happy, but I had to ask him about everything. Were we a thing? No, we can't be. I have a girlfriend. I slept with someone when I already have a girlfriend! I cheated on Danielle. But, am I gay? Do I like Dan? I mean, of course I do. I had so much fun with him, especially last night. I didn't know Dan was so good. He was really good. He was unironically amazing, but I don't even know what Danielle would be like. For all I know, she could be better. Or worse. I have to talk to both of them about all of this. My life is a mess.

I felt Dan move his head so he could look up at me. His eyes filled with lust. He smiled at me. I started crying. All of these emotions all at once. The thought of me never being able to see that smile again.

"Phil, baby, why are you crying?" Dan asked me.

"Because, Dan. I have a girlfriend!" I whisper-screamed.

"Right," Dan said seeming saddened.

He began to untangle his legs from mine, dragging out each motion. Dan slithered his arm out from underneath my back. I released my arms, and he picked up his clothes and walked away. I put my hands behind my head in a streamlined position and sighed. I didn't want to move, because moving would mean facing reality. But I did feel bad for Dan. He probably thought he was just my sex object. I had to fix that before anything else.

I quickly got dressed and knocked lightly on his door.

"Yeah?" He asked softly.

"Can I come in?" I asked, with my hand on the doorknob.

"Sure," He replied.

He was under his duvet and I could only see him from his collarbones up. He was only taking up one side of the bed, so I sat down next to him.

"Listen, Dan. You mean a lot to me, and I want you to know that I wasn't just using you last night,"

"Yeah, Phil. I know,"

"Really?" I asked.

"Yeah, Phil. Really."

I looked at my hands and nodded my head. Seeing as Dan wasn't in the mood to talk, I left. I went back to my room and sat down. I pulled my headphones out of my pillowcase and plugged them into my phone. I opened Spotify and switched on my Ed Sheeran playlist. I pulled out one of my many Buffy comics and laid down on my bed, opening the comic. As much as I wanted to call Danielle, I didn't want to at the same time. I just needed to get lost in my own little world for a while. A world with no one else. Except Ed Sheeran of course!

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Sorry this is late. And short. But I had to give you guys something. More updates on they way! Byee