Of Wishes in the Snow [Soukoku]

If Reality's Your Foe

Warning: Possible trigger, please continue with this precaution in mind. Thank you!
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Yesterday I was a fool,
Ready to give all away,
When you promised not to leave,
When you promised me you'd stay.

Lie you must to those you love.
Yet this is a depressed truth,
Lied I never in our youth.
Believe in me and my plea.

I sung: Wherever you go,
I am honored to follow.
If reality's your foe,
I'll purge your tainted sorrow.

Labels are but sweet nothings,
used to classify one role.
See, hear, speak my given name,
Bear the one key to my soul.

I refuse to be your past,
Part of a remembered woe.
I am prepared to follow
Wherever it is you go.

Tomorrow will find you here
Next to me in our shared bed.
Dawn will come in gold and red
Following the vow I said.

Hope that our future is close,
For we cannot keep hoping
That we'll live to see that day
When next sunrise we might miss.

No longer human we are
Since each time we breathe, we thieve.
Corrupted lungs used to heave,
Sifting through the lives we sieve.

As warm blooded as can be,
Killers we still are, you see?
As though not our wish nor will,
Not want, but our need to kill.

Still, you accepted my flaws,
mourning for me my own loss,
And I embraced yours as well,
Your own loss's cause I can't tell.

But today I am broken,
Reduced to nothing but smoke.
Alone in our bed I woke,
Aware your farce was a joke.

Where I ended you began,
My cheeks rosy and yours wan.
Your blood mixing with my hair,
Giving it a redder flair.

What happened of your bright smile,
To the way you granted dreams?
To nights you lulled me to sleep?
I lost everything it seems.

Distantly, I can recall
The distant look in your eyes.
You could see the world's lies and
Not caring was being wise.

Is this how hollow you feel
When you learn what's false and real?
My love for you is still true,
If only this you still knew.

What is your excuse, Dazai?
Why did it have to be now?
Your audience is waiting,
This can't be your final bow.

Before I could beg, grieve, or pray,
Faith I would fake for today,
Your brown eyes fluttered open,
"Darling, don't look so broken."

Your shaking hand touched my cheek,
being new to being week.
Wiping at my tears so rare,
Tears only wept in despair.

For my pain and yours I cry,
Stopping it I didn't try.
"It was my choice, don't forget.
I should not be your regret.

Smile, Chuuya, let your heart soar,
Be with me you won't no more.
To be honest, we both knew,
I was happiest with you."

At this Dazai smiled his last,
Breaths becoming short and fast.
Clinging to your shirt stained red,
my heart heavier than lead.

Your hand I didn't let go,
When you left me I don't know.
I was blinded by sorrow.
What about our tomorrow?

My eyes were two blue oceans,
and my tears rolled down in waves.
On your still and tranquil face,
Clean rivers through blood they pave.

"Don't go," I pleaded and cried.
"Too late for that now," I sighed.
"You left before hearing it,
My love 'till my last minute."

Still dripping wet with warm blood,
I grabbed the knife beside you.
It brought an eternal flood,
My goodbye I only knew.

Darling, will you hold me close?
I'm the poet to your prose,
You are the sun to my moon,
Worry not, I'll be there soon.

Wherever it is you go,
I am happy to follow.
If reality's your foe,
I'll be your tainted sorrow.

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:)
Don't look at me like that, Dazai got the double suicide he wanted! (even if it was a painful one sorry Dazai I know you don't like pain)