A Death, A Regret and A Baby...

Chapter 3 ~ Hallucinations.

***Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of you babes out there***

Walking back into my room I saw Sophie, this couldn't be real I told myself. I know that its not real, I saw her death with my own to eyes, I saw the gun placed on her temple and I saw her pull the trigger and let it go. I rubbed my eyes, and pinched myself many times but every time she was still there, so innocently. 

"Sophie, how are you here, why are you here? No you cant be real, its just a dream right? " I asked confused like I was expecting her to answer.

"Yes Ash I'm real, I am here. I walked to your house like I usually did and I ma here because I miss my best friend. Its been ages" Sophie said whist jumping and fidgeting.

"No you cant be real I saw you kill yourself. If you are real then what's my biggest secret?" I asked excited for the answer!! 

"First of all, I didn't kill myself an did never will and second of all your biggest secret is that for 10 years of your life your dad physically, mentally, and sexually abused you, he also put you in too hospital 3 times because of his issues, but no-one ever found out and never will the only two people that know are Me and you Ash. " Sophie replied in a sassy attitude.

She had to be real, she knew my secret. No one else knew that. Just then I heard Syd calling my name. Syd is my boyfriend we have been together for 2 and a half years.

"Yeah I am in here babe" I said scared, wondering what he would think when he saw Sophie.

"Hey princes, are you look okay? You look as pale as a ghost." he said hand trembling.

"Yeah I am fine, aren't you gonna say hey to Sophie" I asked curiously

"Babe there is no one here. Sophie died 5 months ago, I think you are hallucinating again" He said looking at me worriedly.

I looked back over to where she was sitting. She was gone, no where in sight.

"Maybe your right babe, but it felt so real this time, these hallucinating keep happening, they wont stop and each time they make me believe that her death was fake." I said loud sobs escaping from my throat.

"Its okay baby, we all have them. You are bound to miss her she was your best friend for ages. Its going to hurt but I will be here for you forever. Even when you fall apart over and  over, even when we are old. I love you Aspyn" Syd said with a huge warm grin spreading across his face.

"I love you too babe" I replied exhausted.

// Though-out the Night//

Sophie, No. No Sophie I beg you. It was happening all over again. No why? Why me? Why her? Why us? The gun, the bang, her death its all so real. I woke up again for the third time tonight. I looked over at my alarm clock it read 3:47 am. Ughhh I had to get up soon I thought to myself. then I thought about the dream, so  real, so close, so sad. After crying for a while I thought about her death again, then I didn't think at all. I just looked up at my white plain walls, the shadows were playing with my mind.

I fell into a deep sleep.

"Please Soph, don't do it" I screamed as loud as my lungs would allow.

"I am so sorry Aspyn, believe me I am but its for the best" She yelled back at me.

"Best for who Sophie?" I asked instantly

"Best for all of us you will one day see" Sophie said her voice soft like and angels'.

"I am sorry Aspyn..." she sobbed painfully

Sophie pulled the gun up and placed it on her left temple.

BANG!

I woke with a jolt!! Not again. When will it stop ?? I kept crying for the rest of the night. i couldnt sleep because everytime i closed my eyes i fell back into that same dream, just different parts but the worst part about it is the fact that it feels so real. When the dreams or flashbacks or hallucinations happen it sonds so real, like i can smell her perfume.

It was 6:25 when i looked at my alarm clock, i decided to turn my alarm clock off and just get out of bed. I got up out of bed, and made my bed, went and had a shower then got out and got dressed. I dressed in a floral playsuit with nude/pink pumps. As i walked out to the dinning room i saw my mum talk to some strange man, she caught me staring and introduced me to him. I couldnt believe my mother why...

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