Misaki's P.O.V
The past two weeks has been a little awkward for both Usagi-san and myself. I knew that I was the one at fault. However, when he whispered those three words to me, I completely blanked. My brain suddenly lost the ability to comprehend the words that were coming out of Usagi-san's mouth. Also, my feelings were a storm of confusion. I was sad, scared, nervous, and happy all at once. I was happy because Usagi-san finally said that he loved me and that in itself was a dream come true. However, I was also scared, nervous, and sad because a part of me wasn't completely convinced that someone who had held romantic feelings for someone else could just switch to loving somebody else. What if Usagi-san decided that he still loves my brother after all. I don't think I would be able to handle the pain if that were to happen.
Since I lost my parents I have had difficulty with commitments. I also feared losing the people I care for the most, and right now that person was Usagi-san. If I lost him I am sure that I won't be able to move on with my life. For this reason, when Usagi-san told me that he loved me, I was unable to tell him just how much I also loved him.
Click
The sound of the door being unlocked announced the arrival of Usagi-san. I went to the door to greet him.
"Welcome home." I greeted with a slight smile.
"I'm home." Usagi-san said with a tired look on his face.
He has been busy this entire week, as well as the last week, with the release of his newest novel. Usagi-san was the award winning writer Akihiko-sensei. However on the side he wrote BL books, which I was shocked to find out.
"Do you want dinner?" I asked in case he hadn't eaten yet.
"No, I had dinner already. I think I'll just go take a shower, then I'll sleep. I have to wake up early tomorrow, I am forced into yet another meeting." He responded.
I was slightly disappointed that he wasn't going to eat dinner, it has been a while since we had dinner together. He has been in meetings all week and I have barely seen him. To be truly honest I missed him, but I didn't want to tell him that for fear that he might neglect his work. In the end the only thing I could do was support him as best as I could, and try to cause as little trouble as possible.
I prepared the bed while Usagi-san was in the shower, so that it would be ready for him once he was finished showering. While I was getting the bed ready I was struck with a feeling of happiness as I remembered that this was the first night this week that Usagi-san has came home to sleep. The whole week he would come back for a change of clothes and then he would be gone once again. I have to admit that the apartment felt empty and lonely without Usagi-san.
"Misaki, you didn't have to wait up for me." Usagi-san said when he came into the room and saw me sitting on the bed.
"It's okay, I was just getting the bed ready. I'll leave right now if you don't need anything else." I said as I got up from the bed and headed to the door.
"Misaki, wait. That's not what I meant. You don't have to leave. I want you to sleep with me tonight." Usagi-san said just as I reached the door.
"Are you sure?" I asked, internally I was jumping around in happiness.
"Yes, I promise I won't do anything. I just want to hold you as we sleep. I've missed you." He responded as he came closer to me and pulled me into a hug.
"Okay, I'll sleep with you tonight." I told him.
With that we got ready for bed. Usagi-san got dressed in his pajama pants before handing me his shirt so I could put it on. I quickly took off my clothes and put on his pajama top, then I got under the covers. Usagi-san pulled me closer to him and wrapped his arms around me. I would usually push him away due to my embarrassment, but I had missed him when he was away, so instead I snuggled closer to him.
"I m-mi-missed you too." I stuttered into Usagi-san's chest.
"Really?!" Came his somewhat surprised question.
"Yes." I responded.
"Good, I want you to miss me more, so much more, miss me till I am the only person occupying your mind." Usagi-san said, as he pulled me closer and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.
What he didn't know was that I could not possibly think of him anymore than I already do, because he is already the sole occupant of my thoughts and my heart.
"Misaki, let's go on a date on my next day off." Usagi-san said just as I was drifting off to sleep.
***End of Chapter***
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