Forever and Always

F.A chapter 7:Hard nut to crack

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I walk myself to school and for awhile i find my way walking on the library.
I walk in and sat on the floor in the last row of shelfs.
And perhaps its better in here,it seems dark in here and i guess some student broken the glass.

I find myself crying for the second time.
Why Ethan's leading me out of the light?
Why would he always want me on the dark side?
I thought he'll be the one who'll be saving me out of this vulnerability.

And stupid it is,i am really crying to the place where i met him?
This is crazy.

I wipe my tears out and force my eyes to close.
But Tears is such a savage.
Seems like nothing can stop its way.
Tears you're a fucking tease.

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I'm all shooking down on my senses.
Why am i even here?

"Miss are you all right?",somebody asks

I lifted up my head and i saw his face,—worried.

I wipe my tears and cleared myself.

"Oh Yeah!I'm great!",i said and leave him

"I doubt your action Miss.",he said

I stopped and look back at him

"You know nothing,as much of myself.",i said plain and leave

I walk out the library and found myself somewhere.
In trees?
I look everywhere and seems like this place is not perceive.
I wonder what is about natures?
Why people value more things like gadgets when there is much better than that?
Just like living naturally.
Oh i went far.

I sat under the tree and pressed my back.

Serenity?
It is.

I stared at the environment and felt relieve for awhile.

I opened my back hoping i could go myself with something.
I throw out all things out of my bag,not until i notice something is better than any of it.
I grab the brown leather notebook and where it is a printed word HOPE,
I don't remember anything i bought like this on stores?
And it looks like been kept for a long long time.
I smelled the notebook,but nothing really smells bad.
But a scent of sweet and something that i can't explain that is admirable.

I began opening the notebook and saw a phrase.

I'm not leaving

What was that supposed to mean?
And is this really mine?
Is hope a sign?

I turned the page but only blankspace entertained me.

But whatever it is i cleared my mind.

"Hey Journal."i talk to the journal

"You said you're not leaving,so then be with me.",i added as if it'll gonna respond

I open again my bag and search for a pen.

"So okay here's what it really is,You're my buddy now.",i smirk to myself

Dear Journal.....

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   I flushed my eyes open when i hear somebody's calling my name.But then my eyes is tricking around

"Wake up."

I heard he calls

"Come on.",he added