//Dan's POV - The previous day\\
"I'm sorry. I love you." I whimper. Tears well up in Phil's eyes. I made him cry. I did this. This is my fault. I made a promise to myself never to hurt Phil like Michael did, but I think I've hurt him worse without even touching him.
"Please leave." Phil whispers, biting his lip. I nod and walk out the door, looking back at him one last time. He shuts the door, making the reality set in. I've lost him. I hear Phil cry out from the other side of the door, breaking my heart. I almost reach out to open the door, but I force myself to turn away, I will only hurt him more.I slam my bedroom door shut and punch the wall.
"What the fuck is wrong with me?" I scream, more than just angry at myself. I sink down on to my bed and hang my head, sobbing into my hands. Phil is the first person I truly loved and I couldn't see it because of my stupid addiction to sex. I know my parents are home, they just don't give a shit about me anymore. They gave up on me when I first started sleeping around. It's completely my fault. Everything's my fault.I put my phone down after sending several texts to Phil. I want him back. I know I won't get him back but I need to him know I'm sorry. After a couple of seconds my phone buzzes. Phil? No. It's Elliot.
You're a fucking asshole Dan! How could you do that to him? You're a lying scum and I fucking hate you.
I hardly react. It's all true.
I know. You have every right to hate me but please can you text Phil and see if he's okay?
I press send and wait for an answer.
Fine, but I'm not doing it for you, I'm going to explain myself and apologise. What's his number?
I send Elliot Phil's number and turn off my phone. It buzzes as Elliot replies, but I can't be bother to look at it. I shut my eyes and slowly fall into a dreamless sleep.
Phil's POV - two days later
I finally get out of bed and haul myself to the bathroom. I need to get my mind off Dan, if I don't I'll just hurt more. I look in the mirror and crack a smile at how stupid I look. My hair's sticking up in all directions, I'm already starting to get beard, I have bags under my eyes and I look slightly insane. I turn on the shower and wait for it to heat up. I take off my clothes and step into the shower, the warm water soothing my body. I let out a small sigh of relief and rub my face. I hope the offer to meet up with Elliot is still open...
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Hey Elliot, are you free today? I actually don't feel like crap for once so I'd like to talk to you.I put my phone down and find some clothes. Even if he's not free or doesn't want to talk I still want to go out. I've been stuck in this apartment for too long. I smile slightly as my phone buzzes.
Yeah, I'm free, I'd love to talk. Where do you want to meet?
"Oh thank god." I mutter, before typing a response.
The cafe down the road from my apartment?
The reply is almost instant.
Cool :) see you there in ten?
Sure :)
I smile and finish getting ready. God I hope today is going to be a good day...
"Hey." I smile as I see Elliot.
"Hi." Elliot says, obviously weary of me.
"Please don't be weary of me, I'm not going to do anything to you." I sigh. "Who I was when we first met, that wasn't me."
"Sorry." Elliot shakes his head. "I wanna say I'm sorry again for-"
"Elliot please, I don't want to think about that." I sigh.
"I won't bring it up again." Elliot nods.
"Thank you." I smile slightly. "We should go in, its cold." I chuckle.
"Yeah." Elliot smiles. I open the door for him and follow him inside.
"What do you want to get?" I ask.
"Just a coffee. I'll pay for it, it's okay." He says.
"Nope, I'm paying, it's me apologising for shouting at you." I shake my head.
"Phil you don't need to apologise for anything. You had a right to shout at me." Elliot reasons.
"Elliot, I'm paying." I say.
"Fine." He rolls his eyes, failing at hiding his smile.Elliot leans back and laughs and something I said.
"You're so nice." Elliot mutters, resting his elbows on the table. "After all you've been through, you're one of the nicest people I know."
"Thank you." I smile.
"Why would anyone cheat on you? You're lovely and gorgeous." Elliot mutters. I blush and smile.
"It's not the worst I've had done to me." I sigh.
"What happened?" Elliot asks, sitting back.
"If I tell you, you have to promise that you won't give me sympathy." I say.
"Sure." He nods
"My ex boyfriend physically and emotionally abused me for two years. He almost killed me before he was sent to prison." I say.
"Jesus..." Elliot mutters. "How long ago was this?"
"Just over four months ago now. I'm okay now." I smile reassuringly. Elliot nods and holds his hand out on the table for me to take. I shyly place my hand in his. Elliot smiles slightly and squeezes my hand reassuringly.
"I can't promise you that he won't hurt you again but if I see anyone hurting you again I will personally kill them." Elliot says in a low, threatening voice.
"Thank you." I chuckle. Elliot smiles and stroke his thumb over my hand."I had a really nice time." I smile, leaning on my door frame.
"I did as well." Elliot smiles. I reach forwards and hold his hand. Elliot blushes softly and looks down to my lips. I nervously lean in. Elliot closes the gasp and kisses me. Dan is finally pushed out of me mind. Elliot pulls away and smiles. "Text me." Elliot says.
"I will." I smile.
"See you later Phil." Elliot smiles before walking away. I go into my flat and lock the door. I smile and sit on my sofa. I don't think I'm ready for another relationship yet, but it's nice to have someone you can romantically cuddle with without the commitment. Do I even want commitment? I mean, Michael hit me when I was committed to him, and Dan cheated on me... Will Elliot be different? I trust him, but I trusted Dan and Michael as well. Well now I've made myself feel like shit. I rub my eyes and groan. I get my phone and text Elliot. He can cheer me up.I hope...
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Fuck Boy
Fanfiction"She won't ever know." Phil's sister Amy has a new boyfriend, Dan. There's just one problem... Dan's a fuck boy. Phil knows about Amy's boyfriend, mostly because she won't shut up about him. Phil broke up with his boyfriend a month ago due to abuse...