The Cheat

awaken my love

3 Months Later
Odell

I paid for Mya to be moved to a more upscale room in the hospital. Since I been coming here for the last three months I figured I may as well make it comfortable.

I can't lie and say this shit hasn't been fucking me up 'cause it has but I still have faith in God that she'll wake up, I know she will.

"Hey big head" I laid in the bed with her "I'm sorry I didn't stay that long yesterday, I had a meeting to go to. But I'm all yours today"

I pushed some of her hair out of her face. "This whole experience has taught me so much. I'll never take you or anybody else for granted a day my life. It's crazy to think that we had just got re-engaged or whatever you wanna call it, then the next thing you know we both in the hospital and you in here fighting or your life. I don't care if your fight last a year, I'ma still come up here everyday 'cause I believe in you, I just wish I could hear your voice again"

I looked down at her "Elijah and Chelsea been going crazy asking for you. Sometimes Elijah won't eat because you not there and he just stay in his room all day when he not with my mom. He don't even play with me no more, I be tryna stay strong for him but sometimes it's just too much. We want you here with us, I never realized how fun it was with you around. I miss you making jokes that are only funny because of the way you laugh after you tell them, I miss seeing you hang with Chelsea. Shit I even miss hearing you yell at me.

The doctors told me it's a 70% perfect chance of you living so I'm trying accept the reality of you dying but baby it's hard. I damn near cry myself to sleep every night. I love you so much it's crazy"

I just wish she would respond to me. "Man I can't do this" I got out the bed and left out the room, pushing past people in the hallway on my way out.

»

"Elijah you gotta eat something"

"No!" he pushed the plate away and crossed his arms "Where is mommy?"

"I told you already, she at the hospital"

His bottom lip started shaking and I just knew he was about to cry so I hugged him. "Man I know this hard for you but you gotta keep stay positive. You know she wouldn't want you moping around here all day and being sad, so do what you know will make her proud. If she dies do you want her to be looking down at you from heaven disappointed?"

He shook his head and sniffed. "Alright, so get it together. I know it hurts and you can't keep from crying but just try okay?"

"Okay"

"You good?" I finally pulled away from the hug and looked at him as he wiped his tears and nodded his head "You wanna watch a movie with me?"

A small smile appeared on his face "Yeah"

We stayed up all night watching movies and playing the game. It felt good to have him back to his normal self, I couldn't handle not being able to hang with him. I miss this, all we need is Mya.

»

"Mr.Beckham" the doctor called me "Um, I'm sorry to tell you this but Mya passed away this morning"

It felt like the world came crashing down on me. I really lost her.

"I'm not sure if you wanna see her before we remove her body but you're welcome to go in her room"

I made it to her room and looked at her lifeless body that was no longer hooked up to the machines, she just laid there.

"Mya" I shook her as tears poured down my face "Baby please wake up! You can't be gone"

Why is this happening to me? I know I've done some fucked up things but what did I do to deserve this?

I continued to shake her body hoping that she would open her eyes. I felt like I was losing my mind, I didn't feel like myself. Anger was taking over my body and I couldn't control my actions. I blacked out as I started destroying everything I saw, ignoring the nurses and security guards that tried to get me to stop.

"Sir you need to leave!"

"Get the fuck off me!" I pulled my arm out of the security guard's grip and pushed him as I made my way out of the hospital.

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"Come on O, we gotta go down to the hospital one last time"

I sat on the sofa, Ignoring Vic as he spoke.

I don't ever wanna see that hospital a day in my life.

"Man I'm not telling you again, let's go. Didn't you tell Elijah how Mya would be looking down at him from heaven all disappointed and shit 'cause of the way he was acting? Well you acting just like him so I know she shaking her head at yo ass, now get the fuck up and let's go"

I smacked my lips and got off the sofa, making my way outside to his car.

The drive to the hospital was quiet, not even the radio was playing. We pulled into the parking lot a few minutes later and made our way up to the room Mya was in. They moved her body yesterday after I left so at least I wouldn't have to see her and have a mental breakdown, but just being in that room make me wanna go crazy.

I took a deep breath and opened the door to see the room had been cleaned. Vic walked behind me and we grabbed all of Mya's stuff.

"Aye, who is that in the bathroom?"

I shrugged "Probably one of the nurses or the custodian, I don't know. Let's go, ion even wanna be here"

We headed towards the door and my soul almost left my body when I saw Mya come out the bathroom. "God I know I been going crazy, but please tell me I ain't reach this level of insanity to be seeing dead people"

I quickly pulled the door handle but she reached her hand out and touched me without saying a word. We watched as a smile appeared on her face and I could see her lips moving, but I didn't hear a thing come out.

"Mya?"

"Take care of my baby" her voice sounded distant "I love you guys"

I jumped out of my sleep breathing hard and covered in sweat. I moved my hand over to the spot next to me and didn't feel Mya there.

"Fuck, it was just a dream"