I Pinky Promise { Baylor Barnes }

Chapter 18 I Hope She Smells My Purfume

-Isebelle-

How are things going for me? Oh, they're just peachy!

Well first of all, I changed all my classes so I wouldn't have to be with the asshole. Second, Blake and I had a little fight about what happened and I am kind of mad at him, but I know it'll pass. Three, once I told Maddy about what happen she has been treating me like a baby. So practically this all falls back onto him. That dick.

The rest of this weekend consisted of myself putting everything that reminded me of him in a box. So, practically everything. Let me just say, it wasn't that fun going through everything that I owned. Gosh, I'm so stupid. To believe that we would be friends forever.

Is it my fault? Did he say that, because I pushed it way to far? Wait, no, Scratch that. It's his fault. If we were having any other kind of fight he wouldn't of said that, even if I made him angry. So, does that mean he meant everything he said?

Of course it does.

Do I think we will ever become friends again? No, he broke his promise. That's like, taking candy from a baby. Baylor might of made me stronger and confident about myself, but that doesn't mean anything. Even though his words hurt me, doesn't mean I'm going to cry about it.

I know a lot of people would be sad, and brought down about this situation. Well, inside I am. But on the outside, I'm trying to hide that with a smile. Is it working? Well I guess.. other people buy it. But is it working from or myself?

No....not at all.

I grab my phone and put on my flip flops. Walking across my room I stand on my bed and open my window. Slipping through carefully, I stand up and walk to the spot where him and I used to spend most of our evenings.

Frowning a little I sit down. Bring my knees up and Wrapping my arms around them, I start to think. What would would of happened if all of this didn't happen?

I look up at the blue sky and sigh. Do I actually miss him?

-Baylor -

I listen to frogs croak and crickets start to chirp. The sun is falling just a tad bit and I'm sitting in the exact same spot where we used to sit when we were younger. I guess I just wanna cry?

It's all my fault. I know it is. I hurt her and I hurt myself. And of course, I hurt what we had between each other. Our friendship. And like I said when I was five. I will never forgive myslef.

And I haven't.

I lay down in the itchy grass and shut my eyes. Don't cry.

*Next Day*

"You gotta get out of bed sooner or later. " Coles voice rings through my room. I ignore him and crawl into my bed deeper.

"C'mon Baylor, It's not like it's the end of the world. " This time it was John Stephen talking.

Yes it was. It was the end. Izzy is not mine anymore. I ruined it, I fucked shit up and threw what we had down the fucking drain. I'm an ass hole. I'm a horrible person and I feel like shit for doing that to her.

"Yes it is." I mumble tossing my body over on my stomach. "I fucked shit up. "I feel the tears coming back. I can't believe I said that to her. My own best friend. Well, now she isn't...

"Baylor, Don't think that way, sometimes you say things you don't mean and try to take them back in the future. " Here comes another lecture from Cole..

Blocking everything out I just stare at nothing. Thinking about every possible thing Izzy and I have done together.

What have I done?