Many ask me why I am so nice and kind, but others ask me why I am so rude and disrespectful.
The answer to those questions I cannot figure out.
Maybe I am bipolar. Maybe I'm confused. Maybe I am doing it for fun. Maybe I'm just an idiot.
I do know one thing, though. The way I act around you may not always represent the way I feel about you.
For example, I have this classmate *Let's call her Cally coz, once again, I'm horrible with creating names* So Cally doesn't have the brightest personality. In fact, she releases a lot of negativity. She barely smiles and gets angry very easily. She also gives out so many negative comments to her classmates and 'friends'. Now some of you might say "maybe she is just telling the truth". There is a difference between truth and harsh comments. Yes, sometimes the truth is harsh and sometimes the harsh comments contain the truth, but Cally is just pure harsh. Being the 'No-Negative-Comments' person I am, I told her nicely to not be so rude and disrespectful towards others. She, however, didn't even pass me a glance and just continued. I didn't feel like wasting my energy on her and just continued with my life.
We constantly see each other and I am not a petty person so I wave at her and most of the times create conversations. She probably considers us as friends, but I just consider us as acquaintances.
Now take my sister *Anna*. I always tell her to do things for me. I constantly scream at her. The other day, my cousin, Samia, and her sister-in-law came over to my house. Everything was perfectly fine until it was time to sleep. We have this tradition between the cousins that when someone sleeps over, we have to share the bed so that no one has to go to a separate room and if someone has to split due to lack of space, that person cannot go alone. She has to take another person with her. There were 6 people: Me, Larisa, Samia, Anna, the sister-in-law *Tumpa*, and Nola. Anna, Samia, Tumpa, and Nola took their space on the bed. There was space left for only one person. Larisa said that she'll go to the room next to ours, so I told Anna to go with Larisa since they are best friends. Anna, however, didn't want to go since she was with her yesterday. Then I got pissed off coz she wants to leave her best friend alone and I knew Larisa felt some type of way about that. I told Anna to get up from the bed and go with Larisa or else I'll call mom. She didn't budge so I told mom and dad and they told Anna to go with Larisa but she wouldn't listen to them. After that, so many people told her to go with Larisa but she still wouldn't budge. So I got really upset and said I wouldn't sleep unless Anna leaves. Nola, being the amazing human she is, decided to go with Larisa. They both left and I didn't want to look at Anna coz I was pissed off, so I slept far away from her, next to Tumpa.
I act as if she is my worst enemy. Some might say that we both look like we wanna kill each other, but with all honesty, I cannot live without my sister. She is an amazing human being and my life would be a mess without her.
My actions does not always equal my feelings, but sometimes my actions does show my emotions. Like if I love you, I will constantly talk to you and spoil you with compliments and gifts, regardless of what you say. But also you could be my closest best friend and I might not talk to very much but I still love you regardless.
Nonetheless, I don't like negativity and I don't spread negativity. You could be the worst person in the galaxy, but I'll find one positive thing about you and focus on that and become your friend.
