Magcon girl || Hunter Rowland

fourteen

We were currently playing truth or dare in a large circle in someone's living room. I was sat on the end of a sofa next to Hunter, with Cameron and his friend on the other side of him. It was a tight squeeze but I liked it because I was close to Hunter.

"Cameron truth or dare?" Aaron asked him.

"Dare" he answered.

"I dare you to kiss Mahogany" Aaron laughed. Of course, he did it. Everyone did everything they were told to or you have to be thrown in the pool.

"Emma truth or dare?" Emily asked me. It was meant to be Cameron's turn to ask someone but she just decided it was hers.

"Umm... truth" I replied. I didn't want to have to kiss someone but I was still anxious to what the question was going to be. She does hate me.

"Do you have a crush on Blake?" she bursted out.

"What?" I asked because I was so shocked.

"Do you? I have seen the way you've been looking at him the whole night" she snapped.

"No I don't and I haven't been looking at him" I disagreed.

"Stop lying. I can smell a slut from a mile away" she spat. I suddenly felt incredibly uncomfortable.

"What did you call her?" Hunter angrily stepped in.

"You heard what I said. I don't like it when other girls try and make a move on my boyfriend!" she yelled.

"Blake can you control your girlfriend?!" Hunter shouted to him.

"Emily stop" Blake calmly told her.

"No. I'm not going to stop. I'm not going to stop until that slag is out of here. Nobody even wants you here. You're barely wearing any clothes, you look like a slut" she argued. It felt like a thousand knives were stuck through my heart. I thought I was welcome there but at that moment I wanted to leave so bad.

"Woah guys calm down. Blake" Cameron gestured, wanting Blake to take Emily out of the room.

"Hunter I want to leave" I whispered under my breath to him. I was so upset I could barely talk.

"No, we were having such a good time. Please don't let her ruin it for you" he tried to convince me. My confidence had sunk so low I couldn't possibly stay any longer.

"Now you're just embarrassing yourself by staying. Go kill yourself" Emily told me.

I immediately couldn't handle it anymore and I got up from the chair and walked straight out of the room. As I headed to leave through the front door I could hear Hunters voice shouting but I couldn't understand what he was saying. I hope he was sticking up for me.

I slammed the door behind me and began to run home. Tears poured down my face. I was so angry, hurt and embarrassed. I made such a fool out of myself in front of Hunter. I might never see him again and that was the last thing I did. I'm a slut. I looked like a slut.

When I reached my house I quickly grabbed the key out from under the mat and unlocked my front door. I didn't lock it behind me. All the lights were out and when I turned them on I saw a note on the counter. It read;

Hey honey! I hope you had a good time with Hunter at the party. I won't be home when you read this because I had to go out last minute.
Mum x

As I read the note I left tear stains because I was still crying so hard. My heart was in pain. I needed a hug from my mum so bad right now.

I ran upstairs to my bathroom and slid down the back of the door. Why did I go to that party? I bet Hunter hated me now for making a fool of myself in front of all of his friends.

I knew this was a bad decision but I couldn't help it. I reached for the blades that I hid under the bathroom sink, under a pile of towels.

I began to cut.
One for being a slut
One for disappointing Hunter when he took a chance on me.
One for getting upset in front of a huge crowd of people.
One for being a huge embarrassment in front of all of his friends.
And one for not being good enough for anyone

The pain relieved me. I needed the pain. After being such an idiot tonight it was what I deserved. I hadn't cut myself since I had a bad stage of depression a few months ago but I couldn't help myself.

As the blood dripped from my wrists I could hear the faint sounds of Hunter calling my name from downstairs.