Broken Branches (Bleed Me Dry/Drown Me In Sequel)

All I Want

"All I want is nothing more, than to hear you knocking at my door. If I could see your face once more, I'd die a happy woman I'm sure." All I Want, Kodaline (Ellie Goulding version).

Andie

I've seen this look too many times before, Spence looks like a sad puppy but he isn't the one about to get hurt.

"Andie, I don't think we are a very good idea. You're you and I'm me and we just don't go together. I'm sorry," He tells me every last bit of my heart shattering with his words. Spence was the one, after so many he was the one that wasn't going to break my heart or scare me, he was the one who would fix me. But now he's gone too.

"Nothing you just said gave me a reason we shouldn't be together. I love you and you love me, it's that simple."

"We had a good run Andie," he says as he gets up and walks away. I will not accept these vague terms but I have to go to work and I don't have time to fight it. Part of me wants to cry while my skin itches to be torn apart, but I won't break this easily.

In the past 17 years I have struggled to find myself. I was not able to become the woman Millie asked me to be but I will not give up trying to become her. I will do anything to protect Millie's honor, which is why even though all my failures there is one thing I haven't done since she pulled my bloody body off the bathroom floor and into the mental hospital. I realized that no matter my mistakes I'm still a good person. I got a job a the hospital working in the NICU again and skin is clean of new scars.

I'm still haunted occasionally by the thought of my ex-husband coming back to take me away from this life. But I know it's all just in my head and that he will never lay another hand on me.

I'm taken away from my thoughts when my phone starts to ring. It's Gia who never calls while she's at work so it must be important.

"Hey Gi, what's up?" I say as I pick up my cell.

"Do you think you could come over tonight? MJ has been off lately and I think having you around will help things."

"That works out pretty well since Spence just broke up with me and I'll need a place to stay."

"That's fine, but you should really try and sleep at your own place. It's been almost 18 years you know."

"Don't remind me Gi. One day I'll sleep there but even after 18 years I'm still not there yet."

"I miss her everyday."

"Me too Gi, me too."

"So why did Spence break up with you?"

"I don't know he was really vague, something about us being too different from eachother. I really thought he was the one, he still might be. I'm going to fight for him. "

"Well you better fight for him you're not getting any younger."

"Hey you're no better than me! When was the last time you went on a date!"

"Andie, it's different when you have a kid."

"A kid that's almost an adult, you need to get back out there."

"Andie, it's just different I'll see you later."

She hangs up and I laugh a little. Gia has become my family. My parents call every so often from Florida but our relationship has been strained since I left and changed my identity. Gia and MJ are all I have.

I get home from work and I lay down on the bed Millie and I used to share together. Some people might think Millie was more than just my friend but when you're best friend is dying things change, Millie needed me there every second. I'm going to get Spence back, for Millie to know I'm okay, for my own happiness, and for the aching love I feel for him in my heart.