Should I Stay? (Slow Updates)

# 3

I woke up under really nice covers. The sun was shining and the room was beautifully lit up. I would've loved to be there if i wasn't being held against my will.

My thoughts of yesterday recollected. I was kidnapped by Alexis Knight, leader of one of the most feared gangs in the United States. She said she loves me. I've been brought somewhere in the mountains (hopefully still in Washington state). and the house i'm in is huge to say the least. There are 8 other gang members living with us, at least one of them, Julia, also likes girls. Last night was scarring.

    I felt tears rising, but I pushed them back. I can't cry. I had to stay strong. Mom was probably worried sick, right? Looking for me hopefully. I slipped out of the covers and onto the floor, immediately feeling the coldness of the air around me. I heard the shower going in the bathroom along with Alexis's singing. She had a really pretty voice.

Quietly, I opened the door and  looked into the hallway checking to see if anyone was there. There wasn't. I stepped out, closing the door behind me, and padded gently down the hall and stairs. I heard voices coming from the kitchen, so I slipped into the living room and out the front door as quietly and humanly possible. This was going surprisingly well considering this was a highly experienced gang I was dealing with.

It was ridiculous cold outside. I still only had the shirt Alexis had given me last night, and it wasn't very thick. The gravel stung my feet, causing me to wince, but I sprinted through the pathway and onto the smooth, concrete driveway. I got about 25 feet away from the house before I heard the sound of a car. It wasn't coming from the house, but rather from the base of the driveway. I dashed into the trees and ducked behind a few brushes, waiting for the car to pass. Julia was inside, and lucky, she hasn't seen me.

After she passed, I stood up and was about to begin running again when I was forcefully turned around and slammed against a tree. I yelped, looking up to find Alexis staring angrily down at me with her brown eyes. Oh Shit. "What do you think your doing?!" She yelled. I flinched, trying to inch back. She was a good two inches taller then me, stronger, and I didn't want to find out what she was like when she got angry. When I didn't respond, she roughly grabbed my wrist and dragged me back to the house. She marched up the steps and into the house, slamming the door behind us.

"Hey boss what's wrong?" Dan asked as we passed though the kitchen. Alexis only answered with a pissed off face, causing Dan to look at me. I looked at him, terrified, and pleading him to help, but all he did was awkwardly turn back to whatever he was doing. No no no no please! He didn't help. Alexis brought us up the stairs and into the room, locking the door and throwing me on the bed. I scrambled backwards and grabbed a pillow to throw at her, but she grabbed my wrists and pinned them down above me, climbing on top of me. She reached her hands under my shirt, going for my chest.

"No no Alexis please i'm sorry." I pleaded. She ignored me and continued, grabbing my chest and squeezing so hard it hurt. She pined m hands down, freeing her other hand to roam my body. I felt so violated. Still i held back tears that threatened to spill. "A-Alexis." I whispered desperately. She growls back, squeezing my chest harshly, "Shut up."

Her hands suddenly being moving down towards my underwear and tugging, and that's when I stated crying. She was going to rape me.

"Alexis please don't I'm sorry I wont do it again I swear!" I pleaded. Her movements only became faster. I ripped my hands out from her knees and grabbed her hands trying to push them away. Eventually she stopped trying to pin me down, just grabbing my hands and intertwining our fingers together. I tried to pull away but she didn't let me. "I'm not ready..." I said again, barely a whisper this time, the tears started spilling faster and I tried to curl into a ball, but she straddled me and held my hands, watching me cry beneath her.

After about five minutes my crying trued into sobs, My chest hurt, both from the squeezing and the crying. My body was tired from fighting against her. She didn't say anything, just sat me up and held me close to her and not letting me go when I struggled. She stroked my hair and rocked me gently. Finally, she spoke, "I'm sorry princess. I really am. But I had to." I sobbed harder. She found logic behind this? You tried to leave me," she continued, " so I had to punish you. You're mine, Casey. You cant leave. I won't let you, and every time you do, there will be punishments, understand?" I couldn't believe what i was hearing. She said she loves me. Is this her twisted idea of love? Punishing me for trying to leave? She kidnapped me! "Baby? Do you understand?"

"You don't love me." I whispered, stopping the sobs and sniffling. Her muscles tensed. She grabbed my face and turned it towards her, forcing me to look at her. "No, Casey," she said sternly, "I do love you. I love you so so much. I had to do what I just did. Had to." She gave me a gentle kiss on the lips. Then another. And another. Until they became rougher, stronger. I sat there in her arms, not moving. "I love you Casey." She said earnestly. She repeated it, over and over again, like she was trying desperately to convince me that she truly did. But it didn't work. None of it. Not the kisses, not the hugs, not the cradling, not the "I love you's." None of it helped and none of it convinced me that she loved me. Because she didn't. She was twisted, unstable and crazy. She doesn't know what love is.

After a while I stopped crying and she finally let me out of her arms saying she had to go for a few hours on some sort of job with the gang, so she'd be leaving me alone at the house. She gave me a stern warning not to leave, to which I nodded.I didn't looked her in the eye. She apologized again, gave me a kiss on the forehead, and then left.

While she was gone, I wandered around the house a little bit, exploring rooms and the backyard, mapping everything in my head. A few rooms looked intimidating so I didn't go inside. Then I stayed in the living room wrapped up in a blanket watching The Lion King, my favorite Disney movie, which I found in one of the cabinets by the TV. When the gang got back it was dark out, and they were all pretty tired so most of them went to bed. Julia patted my shoulder and let her hand linger there before Alexis walked inside. She walked over to me and scooped me up bridal style, blankets and all.

Once she carried me up the stairs and into the room, she turned on The Lion King on the TV that sat across from the bed and put me under the covers with her. I tried to scoot away from her but she wrapped her arms around mine and pulled me close, I fit perfectly against her, I could tell her wouldn't let me go so I sighed, scared to anger her and watched the movie. She stuck her head in the crook of my neck and pulled me tightener making, me slightly uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry." She whispered. I pause, not giving a response and watching Simba sing along with Timon and Pumbaa. She turned the TV off, rolling me over. I stared down at my hands. Using two of her fingers, she pushed my head up to make me face her. Her black hair fell perfectly on her shoulders, cascading down her back. She was beautiful l but I didn't love her. "I'm sorry." She said again.

"I know." I whispered back.

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Sorry for the weird Updating! Thank You for reading. Hoped you enjoyed this, if not then there's always a next time . :).  NEXT UPDATE BY 3/18/17 SORRY FOR THE WAIT PEOPLE :((