Changed {Jack Johnson Sister}

10

Carter's Pov.

I got over the fact that Cameron lied to me because the feeling should come naturally by now I mean I've been stabbed in the back many times.  Verbally and physically and literally. I was looking into the same eyes that I looked into when I was in eighth grade when I first thought he was dead. I couldn't believe that he cared enough to show up. Cameron did too so I mean maybe he forgot?Nope thats impossible. 

"Kiki? Is that really you?" I asked I was worried I was looking into the eyes of some other person. Kiki was the nickname I gave him when we first met. He always used to call me Peach. He called me this because the day we met I was eating a peach on a curb.

"Yes Peach. It is, I'm here now." he said with tears in his eyes and his tears started to slip once more. I was already broken. I was a sobbing mess I couldn't get up so I just had him get next to me and hold me. I missed whims much and he was my only escape from the world. Now he's back. 

"Thank you Kiki. I really missed you. I missed everything about you. I missed your smile, the way you could bring me up from myself. I really missed you so much!" I cried out and all he did was smile and cry. I don't understand how I lived without Kiki by my side. I missed him so much. I've never felt so strong about anybody before and I know Cameron didn't feel this way about me. This is what really tore me up when he was gone. 

"Peach?" he asked me and I looked up at him and he looked like he was gonna leave.

"I have to go but, I'll be back tomorrow I promise." With that he got up front he bed and he left without another word and I looked at JJ and then the door. I wanted to leave to. I hate hospitals so much like every time I'm in one reminds me of the dreams I used to have.

"Carter?" I looked up to see JJ talking to me. 

"Why'd you do it?" Shawn asked. Wait when did he get here and why is Shawn the nicest MagCon boy here? I didn't want to tell themI heard everything they had all said because then I'll have to think about what Cameron said about me. 'She asked me to! I didn't want to Jack! She's not even pretty! She's just like any other girl who is depressed! By the way why is she even here! By the way she cuts for attention! She is just another suicidal freak!'  I cried at the thought. 

"Blame Cameron. He said, that I cut for attention, I'm just another suicidal freak, I'm just like any other girl who is depressed... So that's why I tried and with my luck I'm still here. But why should I be? I clearly only have one friend and that's Kian. He's one of the only reasons I'm alive. I could have stoped my heart at any time. But I saved myself for him. When I had no idea that I was related to Jack. You all were my reasons of living and now. Most of you are the cause of my death attempts." I said almost shedding a few tears at the end. All the boys who heard what I said were amazed that I remembered and that I insulted them and told them basically everything that feel about myself. I bottle things up. I just exploded on my 'brother' and his 'friends'. 

"Carter... We're sorry. I'm sorry."