Body Switch

Chapter 5 : Baby don't cry

I have to speak with D.O. I need to be sure.

If I am not wrong, if he is in my real body, he probably must feel lonely and stressed. He is in another country, perhaps he doesn't know a thing about that country, he can't communicate with his family or his friends because our languages switched. He is completely isolated in a body which is not his own, in a body he doesn't even know. I felt awkward at first but it's like living a dream for me. I knew the members and I liked them very much before. His body is a body everyone would want to have, even as a girl. My body is... just the body of an average human being. I am not even pretty. I think his situation is more like a nightmare that he is trapped in.

How can we communicate efficiently? I thought to myself. Perhaps, if we see each other and are able to draw in real time...? We can write simple things, we could translate it easily and quickly with Google Translate or something similar.... I have to find a computer. Where did D.O. put his computer...? I look everywhere in his room. Under his bed, in the desk we share, in all the drawers...

Kai is still awake, he has his headphones in like he does every night before he sleeps. It's a ritual for him. I can tell he really likes music. I mean, we can never know what to think about our favorite idols. They show us things, and we imagine what we want with that, but we can never know what they think for real. Kai clearly loves dancing with all his might but, I never thought about his affiliation with music. Sometimes I see him writing things. I suppose he writes a little too? He is very secretive about that and does it only when he thinks no one is watching.

"What's going on? You look like you lost something. It's unusual." Kai stared at me half-asleep.

"I forgot where I put my computer..." and I hope you won't find me even weirder. Sometimes I really feel like Kai can see through me. He is so perceptive.

Kai raises an eyebrow. "I will tell you if you promise to stop drinking alcohol. You've totally lost your head. You always put your computer in the same place, in your case, in the wardrobe."

"Oh right. I agree with you, I should stop drinking alcohol."

Now I have to cross my fingers hard. Please, tell me D.O. didn't use a password to open his computer. Please. I push on the power button. I'm really nervous, Kai is still staring at me, and the screen asks me to type my password. Shit. Does he know it like he knew about Kyungsoo's phone?

"Don't tell me you forgot your password too?"

I can't answer, I'm frozen. He will know. He will discover me. Shit. Sorry D.O. I'm not doing my job right.

I think Kai understood my distress because he gets up and silently comes next to me to type in my password. He doesn't try to ask anymore questions.

As he leans over me to type in D.O.'s password, I can smell his scent coming off him. The smell is delicate, it fits him so well. I'm losing myself there, it's like a magic spell. Get yourself together. You have to focus on D.O. He is your top priority right now.

While returning to his bed, he pats my head and says softly "Don't forget rest is a part of our job. I see you sleep later and later lately, and it's not doing you any good." Kai. Stop being so sensitive and so caring about your friends. I can't focus because of you. It's funny like he is more introverted than the others. He likes to be in a calm place, alone with his music. But I think he is lonely even if he doesn't want to admit it to anyone. I want to show him that his fans deeply care for him, I want to hug him and tell him "It's ok, you don't have to try so hard, you can be more yourself and open to people" but it's a really bad idea. Let's forget about him a little and focus on D.O.