Matched For Life

Lying To Myself

He chuckled, the sound of his voice trembling my skin. 

"Of course I do. I always have." His lips pressed softly on mine before he pulled back and grabbed my hands. The rough feel still all the same. 

I was disappointed. He may have agreed that he loved me, but he didn't say it, he might also be hiding something. Whenever I've asked him if he loves me, he says he does and kisses me until I couldn't handle it. Until my knees become weak and I'm drugged from his taste. 

Daniel pulled me to him and hugged me. My head fit perfectly in the curve of his neck. We were like a jigsaw piece. A perfect match. 

"I'll always be here for you, Sophia. I promise, and this promise I'm keeping. I will not ever leave you again. No matter what the reason. You'll either come with me, or I just won't go." 

My heart flexed. He was too much. "Daniel." I whispered, tightening my hold. He was my everything. I couldn't live without him. My life was in the dark when he told me he was leaving. I was pushed aside. I felt like a shadow who just wondered the earth in search for something but never found it. Until this morning. 

My life was back to me. 

The only thing that was bugging me. Was this voice at the back of my head, that was repeating one word over and over in my head. 

Sebastian, Sebastian, Sebastian. 

Daniel and I weren't back together. We weren't just friends we weren't just anything. I have no idea what we are. Daniel knocked my leg from beside me. I bit my lip, trying not to smile.

I heard his chuckle from beside me and place his hand on my thigh. I felt my cheeks burn up. Where was Mum when I needed her? She'd tell him to be a gentleman and get his hand off me. 

This was a bad idea sitting in a room with just him. I don't know if I could handle another kiss from him. My heart beat increased, and my palms became sweaty. Must I always have this reaction around him? It's annoying.

I've only had this reaction around Sebastian. I stiffened. There he is again. Sebastian. He's in almost every thought of mine and the sound of his voice just puts a knife through my heart. Sebastian is wonderful in his own way. His brown hair the flicked over his brown eyes. How his simple smile lights up the room, and that little dimple that appears when he smiles widely. 

I dropped my spoon in my cereal bowl and stood up. I had to get out of her. Clear my mind of everything and start over again. Daniel followed my actions and grabbed my hand. He pulled me to him, crushing me to his chest. "What's wrong, Babe?" 

Babe

I've heard that name from him heaps of times. He's called me that so many times, but somehow, it makes me freeze. It feels wrong. Why should it feel wrong when it's from Daniel? That word used to make me melt and want him more, but not now. Have I moved on? How can I have moved on form him so quickly? I cried when he left, my heart was broken is can't heal so quickly. 

But I haven't thought of him since the death of my sister and meeting Sebastian. 

Which reminds me, I have to see Sebastian today. He may have a girlfriend, but I still have to see him. Something's making me, forcing me too. 

"I-I have to go." I said in a rush and pulled out of Daniel's hold. Something was pulling me towards Sebastian. How can I just forget about him and be all over Daniel? Sebastian was hurt and here I am forgetting about him!

I'm a horrible person.

"Sophia! Wait. Where are you going? At least let me come with you!" Daniel called after me. 

I stopped at the bottom of the stair case, deciding. Should he come with me? It couldn't hurt, I guess. What am I talking about? He just promised to take me wherever he was going, so I have to take him with me. 

I groaned. My mind was all over the place. Can't I just think about one thing at a time like normal person? 

"Sure, come on-"

"I'm dressing you." Daniel said, desire written all over his eyes.

I looked back at him and gulped. "What?"

My heart stopped, and my feet turned to ice. Did he just say that?  

Daniel close the distance between us and wrapped his arms around my waist. "I said, I'm going to dress you." His voice was rough in my ear and I couldn't help but shiver. 

Why is he doing this to me now? I'm supposed to be thinking about Sebastian. 

"Sophia," Daniel whispered before his lips silenced mine.

He pushed me up against the wall and kissed me with passion that I've never felt form him before. His hands held my arms up against the wall, sending shivers down my spin. I broke away from him taking back my breath. His lips didn't leave my skin as they trailed down to my neck. His teeth grazed along my skin and something clicked in me. Daniel shouldn't be doing this to me. it felt wrong, very wrong. My hands held tightly onto his shirt. I gasped a little closing my eyes tight before doing what I did. 

I pushed him away. 

I don't know how I was able to push an Alfa away, but I did it. Daniel walked backwards until his back was up against the wall opposite me. My chest heaved as I tried to catch my breath. Daniel leant on his knees for support. I slid down the wall, not able to look him in the eye. 

His breathing slowed, as so did mine and he stood up straight running his hands over his face and mumbling something even my ears couldn't catch. 

"I guess you'll be dressing yourself then," he said not looking at me. "I'll be out the back, maybe a few miles away." HIs voice was soft, but harsh. 

Something growled from his chest as he walked towards the door. He took a ragged breath before opening the door and slamming it behind him. I sat there completely confused. Why is he so angry or unhappy with me because I pushed him away. 

You pushed him away, and you're asking what you did wrong!

Shut up. 

I can't help that it felt wrong for his lips to lock with mine. I'm not the creator of love and lust and passion, I don't know how to stop things from doing what they do. If my body says that it's wrong, then I can't argue with it. 

I let out a breath and stood, walking up the stairs. 

My life was in a complete mess. I didn't know who to go with. Someone who I don't even know if he likes me, or a guy who loves me to bits. 

Somehow, I was leaning towards the guy who loves me. 

Do I love him back?

Who knows.  

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