Dear diary

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by StephsFanficsX

by StephsFanficsX

Dear diary

So I'm in love. I have been for several years now. In fact maybe even since year 8. But it's a secret. I can never tell anyone.

If I do, I know that so many people will get hurt,, which is why I'm writing this diary. I always thought diaries were for teenage girls who had nothing better to do with their life,, but right now,, I don't care. I just need to get my feelings out. ASAP

It's kind of hard when the person you love,, the person you are keeping the biggest secret from,, hangs out with you every single day. It's so hard.

To face them everyday and act normal. To prevent myself from hugging them tight,, from telling them how much I love them.

I know it's completely one sided,, and I guess that's what hurts the most. Not the fact that it can never happen,, but the fact that they don't want it to happen.

It kills me every single day. Sometimes I just want it to end,, but I'm fighting on for him. I know that the time may come eventually when it will all just come out. My feelings will just spill and I won't be able to prevent it. No one can prevent love,, not if it's true,, and it is.

I'm so sorry. I act like a douche on camera every day. I guess that's my way of keeping it in. I don't know... maybe I think that if I act like I don't love you I won't. But it makes me love you more every day. I hope you find the one.

I love you Simon Minter

With love,, JJ