How to say I love you [ksimon]

'I love you'

Things were kind of normal in the house. Well I say kind of,, lightly. Basically Simon wouldn't speak to JJ.

Whenever simon was doing something,, and JJ came,, he would leave,, or just turn his back. There was once,, JJ asked him a questions,, and obviously he wouldn't reply,, so Josh had to ask him instead.

JJ's POV:
'I know I've fucked up. I should never have left them that night. He wanted me with him. He was worried. I'm so selfish. I can't live everyday without him talking to me. He is the only reason I'm still here,, and he won't even look at me. What have I done. I need to make him want to talk to me,, but I don't know how. Why can't I just tell him how I feel? I'm so stupid.'

Simon's POV:
'He's fucked up real bad this time. That whole night was just a mistake. Maybe that's why he wouldn't look at me in the cab. Because he knew he would leave and make me worry. He didn't even tell me where he was. He watched himself make me cri but still didn't have the balls to come and talk to me. I thought we were at least mates. I love him. This is too much for me to cope with.'

Simon started not eating. When the boys went out,, he would stay at home,, saying he wasn't hungry. No one took much notice because generally simon didn't eat much anyway,, and he was usually editing and recording.

But this time it was different. And JJ started to notice.

One day simon was in his room after skipping lunch,, when JJ went in to see him.

"I know you don't want to see me,, and I get it. I fucked up,, but starving yourself isn't going to do anything. I care about you and you can't keep doing this to yourself. Please talk to me. I miss you....."

He sat in silence for a few seconds,, and JJ turned to go when simon called after him.

"I love you....."

It just slipped out. JJ stopped in his tracks and turned around.

"Do you mean that?" He asked

But simon just looked down,, almost embarrassed by what he had just said. But JJ was so shocked by what he had heard that all he could do was stand there.

Simon looked away and JJ suddenly realised he hadn't said anything. He couldn't speak. Nothing came out. He was just so shocked by what he had just heard.

'Simon...... loves me back?'

[to be continued]