How to say I love you [ksimon]

One sided?

Dear JJ

I love you. I know,, or I hope,, you never get this letter because I know if you do then it will ruin our friendship forever,, and I can't ruin that over some stupid feelings.

I need you in my life,, and because I know it will never be the way I want it to be,, it will have to just be as friends. I so wish I could tell you all my feelings. I just know you don't feel the same.

You love me as a friend,, maybe,, but nothing more. That would be wrong. It is wrong. So why are my feeling for you so strong.

I guess I'm good at not showing my feeling. I'm so mean to you. I'm sorry. I don't mean to be. I really want to pull you close and tell you that I love you like most people who love each other do. But that's the difference. We don't love each other. I love you,, but you don't love me.

Sometimes,, people ask me if I've ever considered suicide,, and ofc I have. I consider ending my life everyday,, because I'll never be able to be happy,, without you. But I can't have you.

Asking if I've ever considered suicide is like asking if I've ever fallen in love,, and I'm in love now. I have been since secondary school. I don't think anyone will ever understand just how much this kills me.

Well obviously they won't,, because I can never tell anyone.

I love you... JJ

~ Simon Minter