"I Don't Know"

LEVEL 2

School is very stressing right now and my friend is being a total dickshit.

Excuse me for my language but he really is frustrating. I am emotionally and mentally tired.

I've put a lot of effort to make him open up to me. I even helped him with schoolwork and introduced him to my friends.

This dude. Let's call him Kloicen.

So Kloicen has been ignoring me and my friends lately. We don't know why he's doing this but it hurts me the most.

I'm already tired because of studying and he makes me think too much. I hate this feeling but I can never bring myself to hate Kloicen.

Unlike the other boys in my class, he has treated us like a friend but now he's treating us like the other boys do.

I don't know but I have the feeling that he is hiding something from us. My friend Nashirri also feels the same way too.

I don't know if he'll ever read this or whatever but I guess I regret not telling him my feelings properly.

But I'm sure that he will come back to us. He misses us and I know that. My friends don't believe that.

But as long as you have hope and you believe that everything is possible, it will happen.

I haven't asked Kloicen his reasons personally but if he wants to ignore us, it's still his choice.

All we can do is to wait and see what he'll do next. He misses us a lot and I know that.

Once he told me that he will never admit to my friends that he's happy he had them as friends.

I'm not sure if he's telling the truth or telling me a lie to keep my hopes up.

Kloicen has brought my hopes down but that won't stop me. He owes me and I owe him.

Kloicen, if you ever read this
-though I highly doubt it- I'm glad we crossed path and made me feel useful for once. You have inspired me to help others with an open heart. After I helped you for the past few months last year, I've been helping more people. You don't know that your nonsensical acts and your science and math stuff brings joy to other people. I am very happy you're changing but it doesn't really brings any kind of joy to us at all. I know, we've only became friends because I used to sit next to you. Maybe you never think of me as a friend nor my friends. If it makes you feel happy, feel free to do so. Because I care for you.

Always have hope and have a nice day my peeps!

Everlasting hugs and kisses from,

~Miracelle

*the picture above is supposed to be Kloicen. Credits to the original owner*