Why Me?

The Break-Up

My mum disliked the fact that what had happened, happened and especially considering the fact that Jason was there too, she believes that Jason is a bad influence on me, so she banned me to see him after that, but not so long after the that scene she got a job in a place called Nightingale falls I have no idea where that even is but all i know is that i'm moving away and i'm pretty sure that she did that on purpose but I don't want to leave her, so I have decided to go to Nightingale falls where ever that is, not like it is my choice of course.

I thought that my life was perfect, that It couldn't get any better or worse but just in one day I realized that I was living in an fairy tale dream land.

Now I have to break up with my boyfriend Jason, he's not going to like it but he has to face his fear and move on, I have been waiting for the right time or argument but he just seems to always be able to squirm back into my life, but I have been putting it off as much a possible, I don't like fighting that might be my weakness.

My mother has never liked Jason never has and she never will.

I think that another reason she wants us to move to get some separation between us, but I do to just think I know.

I'm in my room just packing up the rest of my life and I'm not looking forward to seeing the new house its like a fear inside of me bubbling like it's gonna explode and it is controlling me inside and out like I'm not myself any more.

i could hear my mum coming up the stair, i have really good hearing and i knew that she was gonna come to my room and say 'honey?' before she even knew she was going to say it.

TAP TAP, right on que 

"honey?" I'm still angry with her and it was 10 days ago that she told me that we was moving and I'm still giving her the silent treatment of course I have to talk to her but I'm not happy when I do talk to her, but I look at her and she knows I'm still angry.

"right you listen here Missy, I don't want it to be like this for us, I want to be able to pay for your collage and for you to go out to fancy places, and this new job can provide that for both of us. And do you wanna know why nightingale falls is?" she looked very excited to announce this surprise to me.

i could see it in her mind but I guess I have been too stubborn because i have always wanted to go there "where?" i had hoped it was somewhere close to here please, that way I can still see my old friends here, but it wasn't.

Mum had a great smile "California" she says clapping her hands what's to be happy about, yeah the place has nicer weather but we can't just pack up all our stuff and act like we have lived there all our lives, because we have built relationships here with the people in the streets, I have built a popular reputation in my school and have many, many, many friends and we have to throw all that away for what? Mum's stupid new job and then that suddenly made me angry again and I was back to square one again, ignoring her and she noticed by the expression on my face.

"oh come in sweetie, it'll be a great experience for the both of us" I'm not even going to start an argument with that comment, for both she just means herself

"yeah can't wait" i said sarcastically, but she new I was being sarcastic but she got up and left me in my half, no more like 3/4 of my empty room, I'm gonna miss this place so much it's unreal, a few weeks ago I would have been happy to have moved out and away to California but now things have changed, I have changed, ask anyone I'm a completely different girl now...all because of the accident, because I know what I saw, even if no-one else will believe me.

I was standing up and there was gonna be a knock at the door I knew it would be Jason

Knock knock

My mum called for me saying it was just Jason at the door for me, I told my mum that I'm going for a walk and I grabbed my cheap leather coat and prepared myself for a every big argument that I know is gonna happen.

I was focusing on trying to read his mind, I tried so hard, but that's the reason I went out with him because he was the only person in the whole school, no the whole town that I couldn't read, it was so peaceful being with him.

Jason said awkwardly "so, you said you needed to tell me something?" I felt my heart beat increasing and increasing by every second that pasted, I don't want to hurt him, I never did.

I thought that if I just told him it's over and run away that would be better but then he's faster than me and he could slide tackle me to the floor so that will never work.

"yes-I-um-I-I think we should-um-go our separate ways it's not you..." Jason gave me a dirty look like I was a peace of dirt on his wind screen and I wouldn't come off.

"what? Do you mean break up?"

"yes, I want us to go our separate ways Jason you need to understand..."

"can you hear yourself Its the heat your not feeling well are you?" it was a rhetorical question

"No Jason its not that!" i say grunting he always does this

"then maybe it's the stress on the move, well go inside and I'll see you soon okay? Ok" he had already begun to walk away from me.

"NO! JASON!" But he had already walked way around the corner.

i cased him but when i reached the corner he was nowhere to be seen, but it wasn't that bad at least when I move he will never ever see me again...