Why Me?

The Big Change

Chapter 4

June 2nd - Monday

Dear diary

I thought to myself, today will be different but now I'm not very sure.

so here i am wide awake at 5:30am, I keep having the nightmares about what had happened in the forest.

it made me think, am i that vulnerable and weak? because it sure makes me feel like that, i feel terrible that i cant even look out for myself, so i have been thinking about taking fighting lessons, so i can build up my muscle and defend myself properly.

since the accident i cant even look at myself in the mirror anymore, and i hate that feeling. i used to be so confident with my body but now i just want to cover myself up, and not allow anyone to love or look at me again.

so i can't get back to sleep so I decided to give up trying and unpacked a bit more I didn't worry about being quiet because mum was at her first day of work but since the move I feel lonely I don't wanna feel like the new girl who has no friend and the sad girl who lost everything I will start fresh, my past is my past it's gone I have to think about my future.

New day, new life.

I have to go now I have to get ready for school, first day and all, so bye diary.

once i had done my daily routine i then got up after unpacking i thought i'd better start getting ready i un-knotted my necklace that I never take off- wanna know why? yeah it's a family heirloom-then had a quick shower which felt like heaven, then hair dried my hair, which ended up turning into my usual hair which is curly, then I put on my skinny dark blue jeans and my black plain top picked out my blink 182 jumper to wear a bit later if I'm cold because it looked a bit foggy outside so I put it in my bag just in case and put my favourite very expensive perfume on called immortality it smells really good and I put on and tie up the laces to my high-tops that are Nike and white and have a neon orange Nike tick on it and blue at the bottom of the shoe and I grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl and I eat it before i have to leave.

I'm outside of the door sanding silently and lonely staring out into the dark, foggy mist.

But when I left the house I had this weird feeling and as I walked down the foggy path, putting the house keys in my new designer bag as I peered around a corner and in a bush croaked a crow, a big black crow "hey crow" that I thought was the most weirdest thing I have ever done, talking to a crow what was I thinking I felt so dazed I didn't know what I was doing until the crow replied "crawl craw". In shock I ran away running faster and faster as the path got narrower and narrower then as I turned back half expecting the crow to be following me I bumped into a tall brown boy with green eyes...

"Hey! Watch where your going..." He was angry, i didn't just know that because of the expression on his face but because his aura was pure red as he stood up, picking up his books and his bag, as I picked up my bag and as he turns to see who I was and as he looks at me he was prepared to start a fight, but then loosened up when he saw me his aura turned pink which basically means attraction.

He was so dreamy those kiwi green eyes really showed his complexion and how tanned he really was "I'm so sorry I didn't mean to I just thought..." Then I thought before saying anything, he would think I was absolutely crazy I looked at his clothes maybe I go to the same school as him and that will not be good for the first day of school.

I was going to say something but he beat me to it "let me guess new meat?" I thought he was talking to me but he wasn't he was talking to himself. That's kinda weird actually, very weird.

"Um like I was saying I'm sorry" I started to walk away rolling my eyes, but then he grabbed my arm my eyes immediately darted to him because as soon as he touched me I saw every lie, every single detail of his live,-and that is why I try to avoid touching as many people as I can.