I'm going to be including self-harm and abuse in this book. Don't like don't read. Also this is for a female reader who has a boy crush just in case you're a dude into girls or a girl into girls... Yeah (It's fine if you like girls and you're a girl. I understand <3) LET'S GET STARTED! ~Author
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Reader's P.O.V.
School started right on the 3rd of January. Winter Break was a blur. I finally was able to see C/N after a couple weeks. I missed him SOO Much! Just as usual a new seating chart was on the board. What rude-ass person am I sitting by now? ... C/N! I'm sitting right next to him! Keep your cool Y/N it's just for one month. AAAAAAND I'm also across from my best girl friend (Who ships C/N and I sooo hard)! THIS IS THE BEST MONTH EVER!!! I rush to my seat and put everything down and just wait for them to come. C/N is there first.
"Oh great a month next to you," he teased. I turned towards him
"You love me and you know it," I just blurted out. Regret instantly filling inside me. I turn away and look down at my desk and take one peek at his handsome face to see a tint of pink on it and mouth something like "If only you knew"... Wait... WHAT!? It got awkward real quick so I tried to pick up a conversation
"So... Uh... How was break?"
"Real good! I got to hang with my friends, play video games, y'know the good stuff," He says smiling at you
"Great! I'm glad you had a good time," You smile back at his perfectness
"How was your break?"
"Oh, ummm, honestly it could've been better" your smile faded as you looked back on the moments
"Was everything ok?" He notices the slight change of the vibe
"Fine, fine" code for I don't wanna talk about it. I moved my shirt to cover a bruise that my Dad gave me. And literally like fangirl moment he hugged me. ACTUALLY HUGGED! Like wrap his arms around me and meant it. I mean what was I supposed to do but hug back. We sat there for like a minute. A minute of pure bliss. Until b/f/n (best friend's name honestly I have no idea if that's the right way to shorten it) sat down and said
"JUST KISS ALREADY!" we both pulled away and blushed. At least I blushed.
"For the millionth time b/f/n, y/n and I aren't dating!" c/n exclaims.
"Quit denying it you both have got it hard for the other," B/F/N states and sneaks out her phone and eventually shows C/N a picture of me I posted on my Instagram. I saw it and immediately blushed. It was of me in a bikini on the beach.
"Be honest, how many times have you jacked off to this picture" B/F/N stares at C/N.
"N-Never! What the hell B/F/N!" C/N turns his head from the picture with his face flushed red. She snickers at him and puts away her phone.
"Over ten times I'm guessing" She whispers to me. I blush and she nods at the way I responded and we started the lesson.
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If Only I Stay (Crush x Depressed!Reader) {SLOW UPDATES}
FanfictionIt is whatever it's going to be :D ~~~WARNING~~~ This book contains self-harm and abuse! Don't like! Don't read! It's as simple as that!
