If Only I Stay (Crush x Depressed!Reader) {SLOW UPDATES}

Back at School

Y/N's P.O.V.

I put bandages over the scars and hid the bandage under bracelets. I go to school wearing my black jeans and a f/b tee. I go to school put my things in my locker and go to class C/N already there. Sitting down laying his head on his desk. I set my stuff down then slightly run my fingers through his hair and he turns to me. I smile at him and he lazily smiles back. 

I lay my head on my desk and say "Too tired to smile?" he grunts in response. Guess so. We sit there in silence. It feels like we are talking though. Even though this sounds cheesy as fuck, but it's like our eyes are communicating. What was in my breakfast this morning to make me think that?! Oh wait I didn't have breakfast. I look at C/N and he stares back. I stick my tongue out at him and he does it back. I close my eyes and wait for the day to start. When I feel an arm over my back, I open my eyes and look around and C/N's arm was wrapped around my shoulder and his eyes were closed. 

Ok, yeah sure I was cool and collected on the OUTSIDE, but the inside HOLY SHIT! WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED!!! And suddenly a snap of a camera is heard. C/N and I both jump up to see B/F with her phone snapping away. God, she makes life so much harder, but of course I love her (A/N; I'm basing her off of my real life best friend so yeah xD yw Halle)

"YOU TWO ARE JUST TOO CUTE! Why aren't you dating?" She exclaims, I sigh in response and he just shakes his head. And the day slowly progresses. 

~SKIP TO LUUUUUUNCH TIMMEEEEE~

I sit down at a circular table in the middle of our cafeteria and wait for my friends to come. Our table happens to be besides C/N, I may have made the table there for such a reason. Anyways, I take a sip from my drink and didn't bother with lunch. Just not hungry. I hear a chair moved and turn to see C/N.

He looks own at me and says "May I sit?"

"Go for it, my friends take a long time anyways"

"Oh, so, why aren't you eating?"

"Not hungry"

"K"

We sit in silence. My friends aren't coming, so I turn and look and see that they're watching me from a different table. B/F hold up a sign that says "DID HE ASK YOU OUT YET?" and I shake my head and sigh. C/N looks up from his food and at me

"What's up?"

"Oh, nothing, just that my dumb friends aren't coming"

"I was wondering..." he begins to say and my heart starts beating fast. What if B/F knew that he was going to ask me out, or maybe it's something simple like he needs a pencil or... UGH JUST LISTEN TO HIM Y/N!

"Can I sit here regularly?"

It's not a date, but I'll take it "Yeah sure, just learn how to make good conversation"

"Got it," and the bell rings we get up and head to different classes