Hate To Love You | A.L

14/ Scared

I walk into my room to find my underwear sprawled over my bed with Izzy and Clary looking them over.
   "What in gods name are you two doing!?" I said while standing in the doorway with my arms crossed over my chest. They just giggled. I rolled my eyes and walked to my bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror. "I'm going to need a shower.." I whispered to myself.
    "Oh and to answer your question your going to help Alec's problem. If you know what I mean." She is smiling ear to ear with her bright white teeth. I shook my head. I knew what they meant. They wanted me to get him laid to ease him up a little. I don't know if I'm sure though. I mean I want our first time to be the right time.
   "Guys, are you sure. What if he rejects it and then I feel like shit." I said looking worried as I came out of the bathroom. I was always scared of getting rejected by Alec. I don't know if he would judge me on the scars on my legs. I'm scared he will look at me differently and leave. I guess I had the over thinking look on my face because Clary came up to me and hugged me.
    "Everything is going to be fine Y/N" she said while rubbing my back. I hugged and cried into her shoulder.
    "I don't think I'm ready guys. What if he sees my scars and judges me.." I was interrupted by a knock on the door. I walk to the bathroom to leave Clary to get the door. When the door opens I hear that its Alec. I walk out and to him immediately. He holds me close and plays with my hair.
    "Have you been crying angel? Why were you crying? Is it Lydia?" He looked down at me worried. I shook my head.
   "Alec, Clary and I have set up a date night for you and Y/N. I hope you have nothing planned out for tonight." Izzy said while smiling at her brother. He nodded and held me tighter than usual.
    "May I ask what were doing and why is Y/Ns underwear sprawled out on the bed?" He said while smirking.
    "You'll see big brother. She might even model for you if your lucky enough.." Izzy said while laughing.
    "Sounds good but one thing.. I like black lace on girls. I think it looks beautiful. It would be stunning on you angel." Alec said kissing my forehead. I blushed a fluorescent red and looked down at the ground.
   "If you want I can give that show if you want? Right now.." I said while blushing. He smirked at me and whispered to my ear "I would like that" He said with his hands on my waist looking me in the eyes.