'Till The End Of The Line

Silence (Part 4)

"Wake up Steve... Please" Bucky rested his head on the edge of the bed, a soft tear gently falling down his cheek as he begged. "God dammit Steve... you can't leave me here" The tears choked his words and he could hardly speak, the sting of the pain clutching his throat. "I... i'm sorry I've been avoiding you, i just.. I don't know how to face you anymore." He chuckled slightly "You always know when i'm lying, i'm not exactly good at it." He looked up at Steve with bloodshot eyes, biting his lip in order to stop it from quivering.

He forced out a deep breath and shakily began to speak. "I don't see why i'm telling you this now, i'm going to have to do it again when you wake up.  But here goes nothing" He smirked and pulled his chair closer to the bed. 

"Remember life, back in Brooklyn, before any of this started? When you were a skinny loner who tried to fight the world and i was a cocky playboy who serial dated girls to hide the fact that i'm gay? Hm, yeah you don't know about that part yet. I can't say when it started, it's just something that's always been there. I put it down to 'brotherly love' but i always realized it was more than that. When they were turning me into The Winter Solider..." His eyes moved to the floor. "... Anim, he used to uh, he used to show me pictures of you every time i'd remember. He'd tease me, taunt me, and just as i regained my memories of you- he'd wipe me again. That was the worst part: those few seconds when i realized he was gonna take you away again." 

He smiled softly and gently pushed his hand over the top of Steve's and held it. The continuous beeping of the heart monitor filled the silence. "I'm in love with you Steve. I know i'm a hopeless dreamer but I've always loved that skinny kid from Brooklyn. That one who just wanted to save the world and be a soldier. That one whose side i plan on always standing by." He looked up and breathed in, pulling in the tears back and standing up. He stretched out his back and and left the room, closing the door behind him.

The one thing he failed to notice however, was that Steve's eyes were wide open.