shiver shiver // yuri!!! on ice

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he was pulling away from me, falling from my fingertips once again.

i was alone again. my wrist was burning.

the boy i'd feared looked down on me, that morning when i'd walked into the room shivering and leaking absent sadness. Victor's arm removed from me the moment we entered.

"oh, Victor..." katsuki spoke so deliberately, his eyes running across me. i was empty, so devote of will. i'd let him steal my soulmate, easier than i'd accepted him in the first place.

i immediately locked myself in my room, head buried in the wet clothing surrounding me. i was cold. so, so cold.

the grand prix was coming up. katsuki would verse plisketsky again in a final battle for him. for my soulmate.

the one who wasn't mine anymore.

i didn't have many clothes to pack. my closet was half empty, only filled with shirts that smelled of Victor and the coat i'd borrowed from him. i'd gotten so used to crying lately.

he was gone already. our time had been so short.

but then a thought occurred to me, deep inside where my mother's stubborn spirit still reigned. my willingness to let go.

the way my soulmate was falling, and i didn't even try to catch him.

i thought back to his eyes that gleamed under the moon. the feeling of his hands on my skin, his lips delicately true.

my hands curved into fists, my own skin tearing beneath my nails. how could i be so stupid?

their hushed voices met my ears, the changing of clothes and the squeaking of bed springs as they moved from side to side. katsuki was with Victor, and i was not.

this is not the way it should be. .

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i cri oms i lost my phone ;-;
so i'm using my laptop during school and ppl are staring someone save me
i'm actually just gonna kms
wHY