Knowing HEZEKIEL (Completed)

Final Chapter

Knowing Hezekiel was a once in a lifetime achievement. You know, he's my secret admirer, my hero, my savior. And being able to met and know him is such a privilege. Having a second chance is a big privilege.

If I got another chance to live, I will not take it without him. He deserves a second chance more than anyone else in this world. He deserves a life worth fighting for. And if he doesn't get that chance, I will surely be willing to be stay dead to be with him. I swear.

Kaya kung totoong patay na ako, then fine! I can't live normally again without him though. It's like my throat was cut in between and the walls are throbbing like it going to crash me anytime. That is freaking scary. So, I'd rather choose to be dead than to be live again without Hezekiel. Vice versa.

"I'm sorry I wasn't able to come in a hurry." Xander's crackling voice made me stop in a paste. A familiar pain strike in my left chest but I shook my head and continued to walk away.

Xander was always been kind. He is the guy who you call a total package boyfriend material. He's smart yet funny. He's proper yet sweet. If I had this one chance before I was able to leave, it's to say 'thank you' to him. He deserves someone who will love him dearly. Someone who will see him just like how he sees life. He's valuable enough. He's the good side in me. I'll always treasure how he felt me guilty at all means. He's literary an angel.

"Yes, you hurt me. Yes, you cheated on me. Yes, you left me. Yes, I cared. Yes, I cried. . . but no. I haven't stopped loving you, Zoe."

That voice made me stop once again. It's like all the memories with him flashes on my mind one by one. No single moment being detailed to be bored. No single memories that I called sad. It was all unforgettable. . memorable. .

Rylle hurt me and made me cry, yet I still love him. How stupid am I? I'm so stupid to feel this way. To still love him despite of everything I've been through. His still there. He still occupies the biggest part of my heart.

But no! I do not deserve any of this. I don't deserve to be happy while Hezekiel's was not. I can't. I just can't.

"I'm sorry Xander. I'm so sorry Rylle. I'm sorry!"

Beep beep beep. . . beeeeeeeeeppppppppppp!

Time of death 6:36 am.

And so, I started to walk.

"Where do you think you're going?"

I almost jump when someone with a cold voice whisper right on my ears. It gives me chill that I immediately lost my balance kaya nasubsob ako sa hospital bed.

"Jesus Christ!" I call out habang nakahawak sa dibdib ko. "You scared me!"