"Ayusin mo yan ha. She’s sleeping already. Umuwi ka na." Maqui said pagbaba niya from Julie’s room.
"I-I’ll stay here Maq. Go home." I said. Tumango na lang si Maqui at saka na umalis ng bahay nila Julie. I went upstairs and crept inside her bedroom. Nakita ko na nakaupo siya and was staring into space.
"What are you doing here?" she asked.
"Bakit gising ka pa? Sabi ni Maq tulog ka na daw."
"Wala kang paki. Umuwi ka na." sabi niya.
"Julie I’m sorry." I said and walked closer to her. "Sorry for all the things I’ve said. Sorry kasi nagpadala ako sa kalasingan ko. Sorry…"
"Stop saying sorry if you really don’t mean it."
"But I do." sabi ko and held her hand. "Jules di ko kaya na galit ka sa akin. You know that you’re the only person I have in my life and I can’t afford to just lose you like that. I don’t want to throw our 23 years of friendship. Please Jules bati na tayo."
"Umuwi ka na Elmo. Good night." she said saka na humiga at nagtalukbong ng kumot. Wala na akong nagawa. Alam ko naman na nasaktan ko siya eh. And I know how long it takes for her to forgive. I went to kiss her forehead tsaka na ako tumalikod.
"I’m so sorry Julie. Good night." I said then closed the door behind me.
I went home with a heavy feeling in my chest. Pakiramdam ko the world’s problems are thrown at me and I feel defeated. Ganito pala pakiramdam ng nakipag-away sa pinakaimportanteng tao sa buhay mo. It’s like a part of you died and you can’t do anything about it.
I couldn’t sleep. Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko para mapatawad niya ako. I stayed up all night staring at the ceiling. After awhile, I looked at my clock and saw that it was already 6am. Ganun na pala ako katagal na nakatitig sa kisame. I stood up and went to the bathroom to take a bath tsaka na ko nagbihis and went to Julie’s house.
"Good morning kuya." bati ng tatlo niyang kapatid.
"Good morning." I said.
"Oh apo. Ang aga mo ata?"
"Na, si Julie po?" I asked.
"Andun sa kwarto niya. Masama daw pakiramdam." Nana answered.
"Ah sige po. Puntahan ko na lang siya dun." I said. Tumango na lang si Nana so I walked upstairs to her room. "Jules?" I said as I slowly opened the door. I found her lying in bed, her tv on and her eyes closed. She must’ve fell asleep while she watches tv. Lumapit ako sa kanya at parang nasense niya na may tao kaya dumilat siya.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" she asked.
"Uhm ano. About last night."
"Look Elmo, kakatulog ko lang kaya pwede ba? Leave me alone."
"Wala din naman akong tulog kakaisip sayo eh." sagot ko.
"Huh?"
"I’ve been thinking about you last night. Paano na lang ako kapag nawala ka pa? Ikaw na lang natitira sa akin."
"Di ko na kasalanan yun."
"I know. Kaya nga I came here eh. I want my bestfriend back. Please?" I asked. She sat up and tied her hair up tsaka siya tumingin sa akin.
"How can I be so sure na hindi ka na magsasabi ng mga ganun once I forgive you?"
"Kasi I know that what I did was wrong kaya hindi ko na talaga uulitin yun. Because what I did made me lose the only person I have in my life." I said to her. She heaved a deep sigh at saka tumingin uli saken. "I’m sorry." sabi ko.
