Austin's Point Of View.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I miss Avery but I can't forgive her... what she done hurt me I mean its not what she done really it's the fact that she promised me she wouldn't let anything happen. I mean in the back of my mind I want to forgive her but I'm sick and tired of getting lied too I just don't need it and she was suppose to be my best friend and if she was that much of a good friend she wouldn't have done that to me. The fact that she said that about her best friend to fit in with the popular people is just completely selfish but then again I did kind of see it coming since its High School and everyone changes. I guess it hurts more when u don't expect it to happen to you. I guess I'm just going to have to do what I have done I've been fine without her since the thing she done so I'll still be fine I guess I just hate seeing her around school and looking at her and all those memories coming back. I just hate it when I'm in her lessons and I see her face and I hate it when other boys talk to her especially Leon because all he does is be mean to her he will just call her a bitch or tell her to shut up when she doesn't say anything and he always says stuff like I'm going to slap you with a book and she looks so helpless because all I see when I look at her I can't help but look at her eyes and she has this look in her eye where she just can't do anything to stop him saying stuff so she just sits there trying to laugh it off making out that everything is ok and it's not. I can't bare to see the look in her eyes because all I see is pain that she's hiding. I miss that girl I once knew that didn't feel so empty inside. I hate it how she feels so alone and no one says anything and I would stick up for her but no one will listen to me and me and Avery arn't the best of friends anymore I mean we don't even speak anymore but in the back of my mind I don't stop thinking about her. The most saddest thing is that she doesn't know that I have loved her since 5th grade. I loved her for her flaws and faults just every little things that make her perfect, the fact that she didn't know how perfect she actually was just made her even more adorable. Well now she's got a boyfriend of course he just had to be a "jock" and of course he just had to be the guy that like every girl wanted to be with I mean even when girls hear his name they can't help but scream I mean yeah Josh is a football player but fuck sake he isn't that special. The annoying thing is that I can't really say anything because they aren't telling anyone I only know because I saw them kiss in the corridor after the bell went, thank god that they didn't see me but is it weird how I got jealous. In a way I just wish I could forgive her and just get some balls and fucking speak to her but what's the point when she's got a boyfriend and she's to busy trying to stay popular.
