Okay, so today is the day I am going to change and to be honest I don't care if other people dont like me cause I have changed since high school and I don't like who I have become one bit. I am sad without Austin, I hate what I've done to him so I'm going to try my best and put things right, I cant lose him, I just can't... Austin... he knows me more then anyone else does and whenever someone would judge me and say that I was a bitch, he would stick up for me and then when we were alone he would make me laugh saying "hell yeah you can be a fucking bitch, but I wouldnt have it any either way and that's why I'm happy to say I'm your best friend cause I can bitch about people with you. Ohh the memories I have with Austin like when we would go ride our bikes to the lake even if it's raining, then we would climb the trees, Austin loved to climb trees. That was one of the best days of my life cause that was the day we promised to never let anything come between us, But then... I just had to go and hurt him and do the most bitchiest thing ever.
I know what i am going to do, I am going to drive over to Austins' house and I am going to suprise him with his favriout sweets and my favriout aswell BonBons and then once I've given him them I'm going to drive down to the lake with him and sit in the same very spot that we made that promise to eachother, maybe just maybe that will help him realise just how sorry I am and that I still remember all the fun we used to have. yes I am going to do this, it's time to get my bestfriend back and if it doesn't work well.... you can't blame a girl for trying huh.
As I knocked on the door and I must admit I was very nervous but of course excited aswell and then the worst thing happened. A total stranger answered the door and I still said "hello is Austin in"... just in case she was a family member that answerd but then the woman said "no sorry my name is mrs Rosemary, Ella Rosemary. I brought this house about 5 months ago from the Malloway family. Sorry that you didn't know". I said to her after that "it's okay, Thank you anyway". As I walked away I felt so strange like I felt so weak inside and sad I mean I'm that much of a bad friend that I didn't even know he moved house. now I'm going to have to try and get my bestfriend back in school, I need him back, I'm not myself unless I have Austin. We used to be inseprable like honestly nothing could come between us and I need him back, without him it feels like a part of me is missing, I'm serious all the time like I can never have a laugh with my friends like I could with Austin. First things first, I need to break up with Josh, I miss the way I used to be. I've become such a horrible person, so it's about time I change my ways and go back to the way I used to be.
Monday 8th March
Okay so here goes nothing. As I walk through the hallway to get to my locker I see Gemma, Dekota and the other cheerleaders and they are all saying hi etc and I'm still saying hi to be nice cause after all I am trying to be how I used to be. As I arrive at my locker I start putting my books away and getting my biology book out ready for first period and Josh comes along hugging me from behind saying "morning sexy" I'm sorry but that's another reason I'm breaking up with him, that is just such a turn off. He is surrounded by all his friends and my friends and I don't want to embaress him so I ask him if he we can speak alone, he realises that I sound really serious and he says "no if you have anything you would like to say, you can say it in front of my mates and your mates" so I just came out with it and said "look Josh this isn't working anymore, we're not like how we used to be and it's killing me inside. You don''t call me anymore and when you do it's only because you want to find out about a party or something and then when you do talk to me you greet me with "hey sexy" like common really are you serious and I'm not going to lie I don't like who I have become since high school, I miss the old me. (As i look in the corner of my eye I see Austin looking at me) and that's when I knew I had to do it so I walked up to Austin and said "Austin I'm so sorry for hurting you and I'm sorry that it's taken me this long to say it. As I am talking Josh says "you can't be serious and laughing with all his mates and my so called mates" and I turn around and say " yh I am being serious, I'm being deadly serious. I turn around and say to Austin "I'm being serious now Austin I really am... please forgive me, I know I haven't been a good friend but I am going to change don't like who I have become so I'm changing cause I miss you. your my best friend and I miss you with all my heart and not a day goes by that I don't think about all the memories we have had, like do you remember when we would ride our bikes down to the lake and climb trees and we made that promise saying how we would never let anything come between us and I'm sorry that I turned into such a bitch and got caught up in high school drama but I just want you to know how fucking much I've missed you and I went to your yesturday to say sorry and I found out you don't live their anymore and I know you might not believe me but I promise I will never hurt you again, you mean so much to me Austin and ever since we have fell out it doesn't feel right and I understand if you say you can't forgive me but just please give me a second chance. I miss my bestfriend and I need him back, please Austin.... (as a tear falls from my eye) Austin says "of course I forgive you Avery, I've missed you to and I've been going crazy without you, It's been so stressful not having you to talk to everyday and I have been wanting to talk to you but I just couldn't do it but yeah I would be happy to have my best friend back. I've missed you so much and I am so happy that I am getting you back again. Promise me we will never argue like this again because it's been hard without you and then at that moment he put his pinky to mine and we said pinky promise at the same time and then I said "you remember".... and Austin said "of course I remember I couldn't forget the pinky promise thing if I tried my hardest. Then he gave me a hug and as he tried to pull away I just pulled him close and said no I can't let go yet, I've missed this so much.
The feeling of his arms around me again and his warmth and he got that glimmer in his eye again, It's back to the way it was where he has the most beautiful shimmer in his eyes and at thta moment that was when he pulled me in closer and grabbed my face gently and whispered in my ear "I've been wanting to do this for years" at that moment he pulls my face to his and presses his lips against mine and then says "I love you Avery Johnson" and when I said it back he locked his eyes to mine and smiled and said "wow you're really beautiful, I mean i've thought it for years (looks at John) but John you are stupid for losing this amazing girl, you need to learn how to treat a girl how she deserves, girls like this dont come around very often.
(Bell rings for first period....)
