It's hurting my throat. My first instinct is to find ground. But I'm too high up. The ground is nowhere. Just to me. It hurts. It's so tight. My throat... There's a lump in it.
My arms and legs are going numb. My body. It's getting hard to move my fingers and toes. But I'm trying. I'm trying to move my fingers and toes. I count the seconds. One Mississippi, two Mississippi, three Mississippi, four Mississippi
I'm at for now and I can no longer count. I can no longer speak. I can no longer feel my arms. Hands. Fingers. Toes. Lips. My eyes close my body feels heavy.
This feeling I've never felt this before. My body it doesn't hurt. My head it doesn't hurt. I don't feel normal human feelings anymore. I don't feel what I was feeling before this happened. Right now. In this very moment. I'm not depressed. I'm not scared. I'm happy. I don't know why but I love this feeling
The feeling of joy and happiness doesn't last for long because soon just here. My body jerking. I feel again. I feel pain. My throat hurts, it feels like the rope is digging through my flesh. I feel terrible. I feel lonely. This feeling right here this is the worst feeling I feel every emotion possible except for the good ones. I don't know why. I don't know how to make it stop. Maybe I don't want it to stop. Maybe I just wish I wasn't alone. I wish I had someone holding my hand. To tell me it's OK. To tell me to just go....
