only the lonely // josh klinghoffer

ch. 11

Weeks later.

The past few weeks with Josh were complete bliss. I was actually dating someone who was sweet, beautiful, caring and who just so happened to be the guitarist of a VERY famous rock band. I sometimes questioned whether or not this was real life or if I was just dreaming.

You know those typical high school couples who are glued to each other's hip and are not afraid of groping each other in front of others? We weren't like that. But we were somewhat inseparable. I had gotten used to seeing him almost everyday, so I knew from here on out, things would be a little different.

Waking up this morning is extremely hard. It feels much different than my past mornings. Today is the first day I wake up, alone. Not physically, but mentally. I look over to my side and see Josh sleeping peacefully next to me, wrapped up in my comforter. Is it weird to say I already miss him, even though he hasn't left yet?

It's the first day of the official tour. A tour that Josh says is 'only a few months' but I'm positive it'll turn into a much longer tour. I should be happy, right? This is an amazing opportunity for the guys. A world tour is such a beautiful thing- fans from all over the globe get to see their favorite band put on one of the best shows. So really, I am happy for them.

Plus, I knew about this from the beginning of our relationship, so I should suck it up and keep myself together. Just like everyone else is. Including Ashley.

I scoot closer to Josh, wrapping myself in his arms. I feel how warm his skin is and how every time we touch, I still manage to feel all tingly inside. He just has this kind of effect on me.

I begin lightly kissing him on his neck, then slowly moving up to his cheeks, and finally, his lips. The most perfect lips on any man. I feel him kiss me back, letting me know that my attempt at waking him up has worked. Hah.

"Are you ready for the best tour ever?" I whispered in his ear, trying my absolute hardest to keep a smile on my face.

"It's going to feel strange not waking up next to you for a while," he whispered back, kissing my cheek.

"I know.." I sighed, instantly feeling shitty. Josh sat up and held me, trying his best to comfort me. I wish I was better at staying hopeful and positive, but in all honesty, I had this tiny fear in the back of my mind that our relationship would change. I had never been in a long distance relationship before, so of course, I was a little afraid of how that would play out with us. But I didn't let Josh know any of this. I didn't want him to have to worry about me. He had other important things to worry about besides his girlfriend becoming clingy all of a sudden.

"I care about you, Frankie. When I come back, we're going to *proceeds to whisper dirty things in my ear*"

I started laughing and kiss him once more before getting out of bed and putting some clothes on. Josh and I are supposed to meet the guys down the street at Anthony's favorite breakfast cafe to share one last meal together before they begin their tour. I quickly change and go in the living room to find my cellphone and call Ash to let her know that Josh and I are on our way. The past few weeks have felt so weird not having her here with me at our place. She had been staying with Anthony at his house near the coast. They were literally my most favorite couple. The way they interacted with each other was just adorable; I couldn't have been more happy for her. He was like the missing puzzle piece of her life- he completed her.

I knew she was probably feeling the same way I was, but we were warriors- we could get through anything together.

Josh and I finally made it to the cafe and were smothered with hugs and loud whistles from Flea and Chad sitting at a nearby booth. Ever since Josh and I began dating, it was like they were our number one fans. I could definitely understand why though. I remember Flea pulled me over to the side a couple of weeks ago at a press event telling me how ecstatic he was for us. Josh hadn't been with anybody in a while, so their support was always nice to hear.

Breakfast passed by quickly. I had ordered french toast but barely touched it. I was feeling a little too nervous to eat anything. I could tell that Ashley noticed this because she kept eyeing me, making sure that I was okay. I reassured her, giving her a playful smile.

Once breakfast was over, everyone walked outside and began putting their bags inside of their tour bus.

It was officially time to put on my big girl pants. I shook my head to rid of my nerves. I was gonna be okay. We were gonna be okay.

"I'm really going to miss you," whispered Josh as he hugged  me tightly.

"I'm really going to miss you more," I said, giving him a weak smile. He held my face in his soft hands, rubbing my cheeks and giving me a kiss. A kiss that would be the last one for a while. I was so horrible at goodbye's. It still felt like I was going to see Josh in a few hours, laying right beside me in my bed.

Chad honked the horn inside of their tour bus, signaling for us to hurry up with our sappy goodbye so they could get started on the road.

"We're going to make this work. I promise," he whispered, kissing me once more before making his way up the steps of the tour bus.

I waved at him and watched as he and Anthony poked their heads out of one of the window's and blew Ash and I little kisses. This was SO cheesy, but it was cute.

Ashley and I waited until the bus was out of sight, before we walked back to our apartment in silence. 

Our companions were leaving for an uncertain amount of time and we were going to miss them like crazy. And who knew what would happen in the coming months. The possibility of things changing were on our minds, and it was hard to think about.