Trust, Heal and Love

Prologue

Prologue

I took the coward way out, I know that, but it was either die or run. I chose to run. I knew he was going to kill us because I failed him. I tried to be what he wanted, give him what he wanted, but even I failed at that. I thought if I gave him what he wanted he would leave me alone, but I was a young naïve girl who fell in love with the wrong guy. At the start he was perfect. I knew he wasn’t my mate, but we didn’t care. Young and foolishly in love I thought he was my world. Until his true colours came through and I lost all hope.

 There was no escape, I was stuck because I believed that deep down he still loved me. Stupid girl I was believed that our love would fix it. Every time he hit me I would tell myself it was because he loved me. Every time he called me worthless or a whore I told myself it was his way of saying I love you.

Over time however I learnt it wasn’t love and after a while these things start to wear you out. I gave up hope not only for him, but for myself. I never fought back because I loved him and by the time I realised how stupid I was for believing that I was too scared to leave.

I have grown up a lot from that girl who believe love would fix it all. I believe that love is a myth and doesn’t exist inside reality, and if it does all that it involves is pain and abuse. I don’t believe that there is a person out there who is your mate, soul mate, destined. Who can heal and fix you. I believe that only you can do that and only you are capable of fixing yourself. What I mostly believe that everyone is out to hurt you weather it is emotionally or physically they will hurt you one way or another.