hold me in your arms tonight
let me feel that everything
will be all right
you say that
everything is fine
that i don't have to be
afraid
but i am petrified of how
the thought of
death
reminds me what it is like
to be
alive
in a way that makes
the edge of a bridge
inviting
i am terrified of
being alive
but they say i have
everything to
live for
so i will try
and maybe tomorrow
the metaphorical sun will
rise and
i will cast away
my cares
but then i remember
i should cast them to
the cross
and i feel plagued
by sin
manifesting as
black sadness
and i draw
forgiveness
from my wrist
in red angry lines
and sobs tear
through my body
but i hear a whisper
that suggests i can be
free
i don't have to shed my blood
because yours was shed for me
so i crawl out of bed and
plaster a smile on my face
i will live behind this mask
because you granted me grace
and you promise me that
there is
joy
if i open my eyes
and you promise me that
there is
light
if i open my
heart
and i fall on my knees in
exultation
and i lift my silent voice in
proclamation
because you died
for me
i will
live
for
you
YOU ARE READING
A Book of Poems
Poetryjust a bit of me revealing myself to you *trigger warning* Some of these poems while speak of self harm, depression, suicidal thoughts and efforts, and abuse (sexual/enotional) please don't read them if they will case you problems. I am always here...
