Inspiration, clouded with a little love;
But more than I can say.
Motivation, that feeling of love.
What can I say to you,
To make you know how I feel?
Less generic than 'I love you'.
How can I tell you this,
Without you feeling alarmed?
What will you think of this?
My thoughts are, "You deserve more than me,
Someone prettier, maybe."
But you're happy with me.
I can't even my feelings
I'm scared of you running away
'Though you tell me you share my feelings
You make me feel so wonderful
I can never say enough
You truly are so wonderful
Inspiration, that's what you are to me;
But more than I can say.
Motivation, that's what you are to me.
A/N: reading this made me feel weird as heck. I wrote this when I was dating a boy in high school. For almost three years, I dealt with emotional, psychological, and some sexual abuse that made me feel like I wasn't worth anything. When I wrote this, it felt like a love letter. Now, reading it so many years later, and knowing myself better, I can see that I was trying to make him be in love with me, and trying to make myself believe that he wasn't bad for me. Growing up is so interesting!
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A Book of Poems
Poetryjust a bit of me revealing myself to you *trigger warning* Some of these poems while speak of self harm, depression, suicidal thoughts and efforts, and abuse (sexual/enotional) please don't read them if they will case you problems. I am always here...
